[crazybeautifullife]

I'm a strong believer in Jesus Christ, n as I get older I feel like maybe I'm not mentally I'll, maybe I've been possessed, if scientist n doctors can't find the cause or a cure then maybe its not at all something within their power to fix. Exorcisms existed long ago n still do by some. The more I think about it the more I believe maybe I need one to be better. My mother has always described my illness in these words.. "Its like she went to bed one night when she was 15 and something took over her body" has anyone else ever thought about this? I fight my brain, or this disease, or the devil, or what ever it is but no matter how hard I fight it always kicks my ***.. I HATE IT

[noshadows]

Hello. I have described myself like this before - I think it's normal because, it feels like someone or something, indeed, is taking over one's body and mind, well "it" does. Did you know that brain scans of people with bipolar disorder actually differs from those of 'normal' people? I is scientific and biological and not spiritual. Or this is my conviction anyway. I actually had someone pray for me and however much I believe in God, for me it's better to pray for healing "By the stripes of Jesus we are healed!" than for removing an unwanted spirit inside of us. I hope this helps. I stick to my meds cause it's working but I know that I'll only ever be completely healed by God! Good luck and remember that God didn't 'allow' this (or broke it) but He can fix it. It is the way of the world and it's curse that carries all bad things but there's hope!
I know what a mother says or said is important and sticks but I think your moter also only said that because she didn't understand it at all either. Sounds like she is a good observer and can may be play an integral part in you getting better x

[Trippin2.0]

I'm very sure I was nearly possessed twice... very different to my actual episodes. I can't explain really well, but I KNOW its different, very different. Also, I've never been able to pray away an episode (I'd be on my knees right now if it worked) but the possession stuff, my brother had to pray for me because I could not formulate sentences.

Only words, like "something", "forcing" , "suicide" , "please" , "help" and "no"... it was very broken, took forever to be able to get those out. My body wasn't mine, I struggled to scream for my brother, my voice was gone, and my body was "listening" to it, getting all the pills and everything, tried praying mentally, but it jumbled the words and messed up all my attempts at prayer... Showed my brother the pills saying more of "no" "no" don't wanna"... and he immediatley understood.

These happened when at my lowest, my defenses were down to zero, so I believe that's where devout folk get that whole MI is the devil, but they have it wrong, MI is just an oportunity for the devil. These things I experienced were not a symptom, delusion or whatever, nobody can make me believe that. Nobody. Besides, I've been seeing the underworld since I was 8 and healthy, and these incidents wreaked of it.

Believe me, if it was the devil, you'd know it. No cure means nothing. Because by that reasoning AIDS is also possession.

[Moose72]

I definitely feel like my brain is not being run by me anymore, sometimes. Am I possessed? I don't think so. I do think that meditation or prayer will help, though.

[Cocosurviving]

When I had a manic, hypo-m episodes or lost my temper. It felt like I have no control, like a outer body experience. I was raised going to church. The fall of last year and all this year I attended church and Bible study. Even joined Sunday school. I have prayed, prayed and prayed. I have asked God to take this away. I've asked God why. Since all my praying I've had another episode. Which I've been having since Nov of last year. I have always believed in prayer BUT 7 months of depression has been hell.
I do believe MI is created by the devil. But I've also never heard of ANYONE cured from MI. Hence prayer doesn't work, we're just serving a life sentence. Yes Gods will sometimes help us get meds and access to treatment serves.

[faerie_moon_x]

The feeling that something or someone else is controlling your thoughts or actions is actually a symptom of psychosis.

I am religious in my own ways, I'm not Christian but I believe in angels and demons, etc.

But, as a priest I saw once said, an actual posession is something that is extremely rare. Many, many are reported. But, actual real ones are so rare that if you see one in your lifetime, that is considered a lot.

And, many places who perform exorcisms do way more harm than good. There are reputable people who practice them, but there are also many people who can damage your psyche and well being. It's something to be aware of.

As for science and doctors being able to figure the cause of all this or how to fix it, really doctors and science are not as far advanced as some of them want to think they are. Sure, we know a lot, but some things are still farther along than our capabilities at this time. The brain is a very complex thing and science is relatively new by comparison. Perhaps if the Roman's had not been overthrown and the library in Constantinople had not been burned, then we would be much farther advanced now than we are. Unfortunately, science was derailed at many points in history for various reasons.

Another consideration is that science gets held back by political agenda, corporate agenda, greed for profit, etc. We could very easily have homes powered by alternative energies other than fossil fuels. But, solar power is free versus millions of dollars for oil. There types of medicines that are widely used in Europe, for example, which are effective for many illnesses, but they are not used in the US? Why? Because of corporate positioning. It has nothing to do with the health and well being of people.

Also, our society itself does not promote mental health, or health at all. We are bombarded wtih messages to be healthy and yet the very core of how we live exhausts us into unhealthy lifestyles.

So no, I don't think it is possession. And, your mom may be just wishing for when you were a little girl but not fully seeing the progression of your illness.