Where am i?

I don't know guys.

think i've gotten 8 hours of sleep in the last two or three days, idk when i slept or where my time went.

getting paranoid/delusional, slipping.... momentary intrusive thoughts about why I even try at life. And then I'm back up.

And i'm going and talking and weaving words from subject to subject. Which are really not related but my mind just branches out differently than others' minds.

I'm doing so well, almost at the finish line (college finals). Then two weeks and I'm back at it... My schedule is looking pretty full until about.... February next year.

We must go go go. There is no time to stop, no time to falter or fail. Move or die. Sink or swim.

You must live without thinking. Just live.

You need to allow yourself the opportunity to slow down every once in while. Towards the end of my college career I found myself in a very similar mindset. But I realized that the projects and papers will always get done, finals will always get passed and everything will always turn out fine.

Please don't work yourself to death.

I have plenty of time and no time at all. Spending it all on stuff i shouldn't be - useless side projects and video games. Need to study.

Can't stop. This is my shot. I'm gonna take it.

And I've gotta make it look good.

I just finished my BSED. A month ago in fact! I am having a hard time adjusting to the routine of not having a routine. I have become more depressed now and I know that I just need to get back into something structured. I guess I am the opposite of you. I can't slow down, otherwise my mind turns against me. Good luck in school...I hope things settle down a bit for you!

You need to sleep or you will have a psychotic break. If anything try benedryll or ask your doc for a sleep aide.

I could not possibly agree more with Confusedinomicon. No sleep = paranoid, delusional, psychotic break. It was not long ago I saw this first hand, and it was terrifying. He didn't think there was time to stop or sleep either. It almost killed him. More than once. And he hasn't been quite the same since. So please DO take the time to sleep. Lack of sleep really ***** with one's brain in a MAJOR way.
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Yes I agree. Its not so much sleep as life in general that's just moving so far ahead of me and i'm not keeping up, so I must keep going.

I hadn't slept well in a while but I took some time and really made myself sleep earlier. full uhh.... 8? hours.... more or less.

I really just can't stop talking when I start. Verbally I mean.

So many things just connect and i can jump sentence to sentence.

My mind is going but at the same time its so unfocused and blocked when I try to do my homework......also having trouble even recalling information.

I know I might need medication at this point but i just don't have the money to even pay for the appointment, let alone the pills.

Bipolar is killing me. If i'm not up all night doing something I shouldn't be then I'm thinking: what for, why try?

Yeah. lol.