[Melmo]

I have had social anxiety all my life, and fear of being judged. I feel like no matter where I go, people are staring at me so I avoid really busy areas, for example walking along busy streets, intersections terrify me because I have to stand there in front of all those people waitin for the walk signal. I try to look confident but inside I'm terrified, I just wanna disappear. I look at myself in the mirror 1000 times a day and I'm tired of it. I'm constantly worrying about how I look and what people think of me. I feel more comfortable in jeans ad hoodies but in the summertime it just doesn't work. (And trust me I know, I did it for years when I was younger, I never wore t shirts.)
This had been going on for my whole life, and the thought that it'll never go away scared me. I hate this!

[~Christina]

Anxiety is horrid. I have had some of the same problems are you do, so I relate.

Do you have T ? I think they are very helpful when it comes to Anxiety. Anti-anxiety pills altho they may help a bit .. there is no Super pill that will fix it. Learning ways to cope is always a better solution.

I feel for you I really do ((( hugs )))

[Melmo]

I only see my family dr every few week/months to monitor my
Meds. I sometimes get so frustrated I want to talk to
Someone but I don't know who to call to find someone, and I hate making phone calls for stuff like that, triggers more anxiety. I'm afraid I will somehow embarass myself or something.

[Melmo]

Oh and my family dr has prescribed me celexa, I have been taking it for a few months now. I can't tell if it's working or not, although I haven't had any major anxiety/anger issues at work like I was before the celexa.

[~Christina]

So , your family doctor is treating your Bipolar? Personally I never think that is a good idea .. GP's simply do know specialize in psych treatment.

As far as a therapist goes , Your GP office should be able to find someone to see you , which would releive your stress of calling around.

[Melmo]

He asked me one time if I wanted to see someone, I said yes. He said he could refer me through the mental health office but we both knew it takes months sometimes years to get in to see someone so I told him not to bother. I regret it now.

[Melmo]

I also haven't been diagnosed as bipolar, but I am almost positive I am. He once mentioned months after bring diagnosed with depression that I might be and I
Blew it off. I looked it up though and related to everything I was reading. He still thinks its a possibility because when he prescribed me something he said "if
You are bipolar, it shouldn't make you manic."
I do want to see someone so I can be officially told I am or am not bipolar.

[BipolaRNurse]

Honestly, without knowing more about you I'd have to question whether you really are bipolar at all. The fact that your antidepressant is apparently working without causing any mania or hypomanic symptoms tells me that you may very well not be BP.

Having anxiety and anger doesn't automatically equal bipolar disorder, and if you turn out not to have it, be thankful.....trust me, you don't want this. The only person who can diagnose you properly is a licensed psychologist or psychiatrist; the average GP/internist is not trained to diagnose, or prescribe for, psychiatric disorders. Please get a referral ASAP; it's almost always better to know what you're dealing with instead of analyzing yourself to death and not coming up with the correct answer (and believe me, I did the same thing before I was diagnosed).

Best of luck to you in pursuing better mental health.