You never know what the day will bring

I never know what the results of my mood will be. Right now I am in a constant state of dread for any upcoming event, even if I know it will probably have a good outcome. Right now I am dreading dinner this evening. I am dreading work tomorrow, and I am dreading dinner with a friend tomorrow evening. I even dread getting on the internet and buying tickets to a concert-why? My sister and her adult daughter want to go with my daughter and me, and I dread the thought of spending a full day with them. My sister is medicated for schizophrenia. She's fine, but I don't like talking about dx's with her.

Just last week, instead of this feeling, I was experiencing feelings of having to get the task at hand over with so I could move on. I was in a state of negative anticipation.

I think all of this is why I want to sit and do nothing, but I am trying to follow the advice of my t.

Bluemountains

Hi blue I understand I'm so hyper vigilant now it's like I'm at a battle ready for the fight. The thing is there is no fight I'm dreading going to t tomorrow like WTD can u resolve in fifty minutes

Okay, made it through dinner-cooking for homeless guests at my church. It was a great experience. One little two year old loved giving hugs and kisses. My daughter painted fingernails and toenails, and the little girls loved it!
Now to conquer my next dread, work tomorrow. This is a valid one because my students only have two weeks left of elementary school.

Blue ! You are so amazing ! You have all kinds of things going on and I so understand the dreading feeling.

But.........you are just plowing through it all. Be proud of yourself !

Christina, you are always so wonderful and encouraging! Thank you!

I'm so proud of you too I'm stuck in this dreadful anxiety. So much too much to do, but we do it somehow. I'm even dreading rolling out the trash cans tonight. Silly really, avoiding my neighbors. I'd best just get it done before it's dark. I'm amazed at how my much we get done.

I am with you on how tough the minor tasks can be. I guess we just do the things that don't give us a big choice.
We got some new next door neighbors a couple of weeks ago and I saw their garage open, so I wouldn't go out until the car pulled out.
Thanks, Blue!

I never knew others had this 'dreadful anticipation' thing going on. I am dreading spending the day with my son, the long drive...even though I love him very much. It makes no sence but I want it over with so I can stay safe in my comfort zone. I dread future social engagements with my sister in law and her family, I dread the late afternoon. I'm a morning person and always feel normal and energetic and stable until around 3pm. I dread two phone calls I have to make today. It's so silly but it's real.

It sounds like you all are jumping through these self imposed hurdles. And I am proud of you too. It gives me encouragement to jump across my own. Good to know I'm not the only one.