[Otter63]

It's not normal for me to have this kind of free-floating anxiety. I also don't usually have this self pity thing I'm doing.

My husband really pushed me to get on disability, and sometimes I'm glad to be on it, but I think it's bad for me. I'm not a self starter. Also, I don't have much stress in my life on a daily basis which makes handling stress when it does come that much harder. But I'm sorry for rambling. I just feel a mess today

[gayleggg]

That free -floating anxiety can be tough to handle. Sorry you are having a bad day. Maybe you could volunteer somewhere that interests you. That would give you some structure and get you out of the house some. You could start easy, like with one day a week. I hope your day gets better.
Gayle

[Otter63]

Thank you Gayle. I've been wanting to volunteer and I am mostly set up to do meals on wheels once a week. I'm very excited about it, but they have us (my friend is going to do it with me) filling out a form, and the form is the cause of some of my stress. I was arrested 20 years ago for assault because of a fight I had with my husband. The charges were dropped, but I am worried it will keep me from being able to do this.

Hi there, I hope you feel better. If you don't have an actual conviction - I think that your background check will be fine. (Unofficial legal advice...but hope it helps). Do you have a therapist? That may help you. Take care.

[Otter63]

Thank you Rainyday. I don't have a therapist. I lost my mental health care coverage because of Obamacare so my pdoc now costs me a hundred dollars a shot. Can't afford anything more. I feel better today so maybe it was a fleeting thing. I think talking about it on here and just acknowledging it helped.

[gayleggg]

I understand living without insurance. I was turned down due to my bipolar dx. Hope the arrest doesn't keep you from getting the position. Understand that too. I have one arrest on my record but the charges were dropped. Sucks with so many places actually running background checks these days. Good luck.
Gayle

Hi, please do keep posting and PM me anytime. You may want to see if there is a local support group in your local area - for USA, check Find Meetup groups near you - Meetup or NAMI. I go to one locally and have for years. It helps to connect with others that "get it." Sorry to hear about your health coverage...that stinks. I have Medicare (I'm disabled) so I am fortunate for that...take care and contact me anytime! x

[Otter63]

Thank you for the support. Things have settled down today