So freaked out

Idk what's going on with me. I feel like I'm having a heart attack. I know it must just be a. Bad panic attack, but I'm so sick of being messed up. I hate being by myself period, but lately I don't want to go anywhere by myself either. I feel like I need a lot more "help" than I can get. I feel like its too late to have the life I want and I will just be miserable the rest of my life. I'm so scared I don't want to go to the hospital. But I don't feel very safe.

Red, take a deep breathe. Pick up any object you have laying around, and focus on that object. I know it will sound dumb, but describe that object in detail. What color is it? Is it hard or soft? Can you squeeze it? How big is it? You get my point.

Don't give up the fight.

Yes breathe . Distract yourself !!! Jeffro gave an outstanding idea

Keep posting if it helps

Nothing is really helping I called my therapist twice and couldn't get a hold of her. I couldn't sleep at all last night and screwed up an interview for a job I really wanted today

I have felt everything you describe. I am sorry you are
Having a hard time.

It is never too late although it feels that way now.

Do you have any PRN medication that could help with the bad anxiety you are feeling ?

Is there anything in the past that has helped you soothe yourself.
Anyone beside the therapist that you can talk with.

Keep posting here.

Thanks guys. I am feeling better now I talked to my mom and my husband is almost home