Is this manic maybe?

So I can't stop thinking about sex... at all and i'm about to go pick up some random stranger at this point. My mind is racing and all I can do is sit here thinking....

I've got all this money comin in next month and this guy up north a bit wants me to come visit, maybe live with him....he's wanted me to come see him forever because we've known each other for like 9 years

We could take that money and make it for a bit i think... is this just a bipolar thing? running off with a bunch of money to go have sex with some guy?

yes. call your dr asap and tell him/her what's going on. I've almost done what you are talking about and it would have been a disaster of epic proportions. Don't follow the impulse. call the dr instead.

Agree with emomom---RUN, do not walk, to your p-doc and get some help before you do something you are sure to regret!

That's totally manic, and I have done that many times with bad consequences. Not live with a guy, but running off to have sex with a guy sounds all too familiar to me. Call your pdoc or your T and have an emergency session because you definitely need to talk this over with a professional.

I already texted him and he's buying the tickets man i can't turn back now. That was way impulsive.... I need to go. Gotta go.

Oh, sh**......sure hope she gets hold of herself before everything blows up in her face.

You can always back out, just because tickets were bought doesn't mean it is set in stone. I suggest you get a hold of yourself. I'm with Bipolar Nurse, I hope it doesn't blow up in your face. Just be careful

He can return the tickets. And if they are non-refundable, pay him back. You've got money coming to you. Get help now before you blow all your money. Remember the cycles. If you go you'll be excited at first, but what happens when you level out? You'll be depressed, far from home and most likely broke.

Take a second to breathe and SEE YOUR DOCTOR.

Guys I'm just so messed up at the moment you're all right I shouldn't do this. But if I don't i'm going to end up killing myself or self harming again.

Seriously, listen to Patsy. Call your dr's office tonight and see if there is a dr on call. You need help now. You don't need to see this man right now. You need to treat your mania. Now.

Go to the hospital. They can give you something to stop the mania and keep you from doing anything to hurt yourself.

If your even THINKING about harming yourself, call the dr now, like emomom says. If you have to wait until morning, then do it in the morning. First thing in the morning. If you can't sleep, keep busy. Put on a movie, keep posting on this site and reading other threads, write in a journal, draw a self portrait, eat cereal. This feelings you have are going to pass. Make yourself aware of that.

Hmm... I should take some of my own advice.

Think I might just cry a little.

Its going to be ok but you do need to get help. Call your dr office and see if there is a dr on call. Do that first then come back and tell us what he said.

There's no one there just an answering service. No option for on call guy or nothin.

ok. look up a psych hospital # in your area and talk to someone there and see what they can tell you.

but seriously, if you are thinking in any way shape or form of hurting yourself, just GO to the hospital. Don't wait. Call a friend or your family member to drive you there if you can

In case you don't have this and want to call...crisis hotline 1-800-273-8255

Those are traps man, they send cops to your door. Not doin it. Tomorrow is a new day.

ok. I've never had that happen but in the meantime try to get some sleep or do something to keep yourself occupied in a healthy way if you can't sleep, clean dishes or do laundry or something like that and be sure to call your dr as soon as his office opens in the morning. I know I've not written before but I really do care and want you to be ok.

What is your plan for tomorrow? Can you call once you wake up?

I appreciate all the support really. But I can't not do this. Have to. Can't go to doctor about it because he'd definitely try to stop me.

I think I'm actally going through with this....

My plan? My plan is to act cool, like i'm not about to just take the f**k off. That's all. No doctors.

Ok. When do you see your dr next?

Supposed to see him on the 9th or something, I don't remember. Won't be there though, cuz i'm leavin.

Not even gonna take my meds with me, f**k it. There's no room in the suitcase for all that crap.