[stephybee]

im emotionally exhausted all i want to do is sleep it takes so much strength to go to a job that you hate. a job where i bust my butt to get a dollar more than minimum wage, for a paycheck that wouldnt cover bills anyway i want to sleep all the time and isolate myself from people but i know thats not healthy so im trying my hardest to push myself to get up go to work and go out to do things i like (even though im having a hard time liking anything at the moment). i wish i just had the answers for happiness

[anneo59]

Hang in there stephybee, and I know it's not much comfort, but many of us feel as you do. In the meantime, there are small things that still bring joy in life, some are universal, while some are different for different people. Whether, it's the feel of the water of the shower beating down on you, the warmth of the sun, a special treat to heat, or someone smiling at you, it's all there, still, for the enjoyment. Tho, when we are depressed, it's hard to see all this. Feel free to reach on to the various forums, there are some directly related to your situation. Sticky notes should help you with navigation. The very best!

[gayleggg]

stephybee, I understand about the job. I hate mine, too. And I too would stay in bed all day if I didn't have to get up and go to work. However, at least it forces me to participate in life a little bit. At least, I'm distracted from this awful depression for a little while. Have you seen a psychiatrist? or therapist? If not it would be a good thing to do. I hope your depression lifts soon. Mine keeps lingering, too. Keep posting and you will get support and even make a few friends. I get a lot of positive stuff from the forums.

[stephybee]

thanks for the replies. im new to this site and i guess it doesnt notify you when you have any kind of new notifications?.. maybe im still learning. anyway yeah simple little things in life such as a smile from a stranger is wonderful. things will get better i just am sick of trying so hard for nothing. one day at a time i guess

[deelooted]

Me too, about the job... mine is so stressful and I cannot do it anymore. I actually have put in my two weeks notice!

Hope you feel better, and like Gayle said, is there anyone you can talk to? I find that sometimes after talking with my pdoc I get encouraged and my depression leaves.

Hope you feel better soon, and welcome to this site- I have gotten a lot of encouragement on this site, too

[stephybee]

well i made it through another day. its just getting to the point where i dont care anymore and i dont even want to show up. i just dont what to do any more. i have performance anxiety, and i want to find a new job but i dont have a clue where to go. ugh. im so tired of beating myself up its exhausting. and yes i do talk to a thearapist who i LOVE but i feel like we havent really "worked on any thing" i just kind of sit there and talk. lool idk. but she is wonderful.. i hvae a psychiatrist and he sepnds 5 mins with me and just writes me script after script. im looking into talking with a private psychologist hopefully i can afford it ;( ugh i just want to feel OKAY... thats all im shooting for at the moment. i would love to feel better but i know it will take time..

my doctor says im cyclothimic and some general anxiety

i was on wellbutrin and lamctal for like 4 months (i was GREAT happy smiles feeling like i was superwoman went out did things ect) stopped taking them---- and CRASHED fell into this terrible depression and here i am

my doc then prescribed me zoloft and propranol then switched me to trazdone and propranol and something else.. i cant even keep up/

now im on klonipin and propranol and im not sure how i feel on it considering i take it at night..