Need help ASAP

Here's where I am right now. I'm done. I've had a few weeks of hell, slept very little and erratically, called the crisis number twice this week. Feeling suicidal. Nothing seems real anymore, everything is an illusion. I want to go back home - this planet is not home. I'm done with the struggle. I haven't taken my meds today because they haven't been working anyway. Will call the crisis line again in a bit and tell them all of this and how sick I am of living with this nonsense - perhaps I'm anxious of what might come of the phonecall but if I do nothing I'll end up in a gutter somewhere.

go inpatient until you stabilize?

I would welcome that, I'm the UK though. Will call and see what they say. Thanks for replying

You need to call someone and have them take you to the hospital, 911 or a friend, relative or neighbor. This an emergency. You need help right now. Call or just go to a neighbors house and ask them to take you to the hospital. Just say you are sick. GO NOW

I have called the crisis line for my local mental health service, I am waiting for a call back. Feeling really anxious about telling them exactly how I feel.

I need the help.

If I don't get anywhere with them I will take the next step.

Dont wait for a ph call just get someone to drive there. You need to go now.

They have no beds for inpatients this weekend, so will have to hold out till monday

Is there some one who can stay with you or you stay with them over the weekend? You should not be alone at all and that person should know how you are feeling, the truth.

keep talking here.

While you are waiting, Just keep talking to someone. Either here or a friend or family member or call the help line again. We want to help you.

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Keep posting, we will keep you company

Hi. Sorry you are going through this right now. At least you are trying to reach out, to us and the crisis line. That's great. You need some professional help though. You shouldn't just stop taking your meds. It will cause massive withdrawals and cause a massive mood crash. If you feel that they aren't working properly then you need to go to your doc and ask for a med change or a dose increase.
If you are suicidal at the moment then you really should go to hospital. They can change your meds there too and monitor you while you transition. Do you have someone in real life you can phone ie family or a friend? it'd be good for you to have someone know how you feel right now so they can help and support you. They can also drive you to hospital and possibly be with you while you're being admitted. If you are really bad you should ph an ambulance or the crisis line and they will organise an ambulance. You really need some professional help to get you over this hump you are experiencing right now. It could be just a matter of tweaking your meds. Is there someone that can be with you till a bes opens up on monday? You shouldn't be alone. If you have no option other than to be alone, then stay logged on here. You should go to a chatroom and talk to someone. Support chat if you are going to mention suicide or just general chat if you just need company. If you don't feel like talking in chat, then stay on the forums and regularly post comments so people know you're still ok. Good luck, take care and pls keep us informed on your progress and any other developments. You don't have to do this alone. We are here to help you. And we do care.