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I keep having intrusive thoughts. Iam hallucinating now too. The visions of stabbing myself won`t go away. They are here every day. I try to ignore them but they just play. The hallucinations are visual.... of a cat walking by. This is beginning to get out of control. Someone asked me how im doing since being out of the hospital. Truth is im better but not. Different issues. I know I see my pdoc tomorrow so thats good. Then tomorrow night I take my so. To a sleep study and I have tomsleep there too.

Hey moose! Have you blogged recently? Any photography?

Hope, your sleeping and Pdoc can help.

I'm glad you are seeing your doc tomorrow, those thought sound awful!

Take care

Me too, I'm so glad you are seeing a doctor tomorrow. Be sure and be completely honest him/her.

Its a sleep study for my son so I will be sleeping at the hospital with him. The hard part is finding the lab in the hospital. I always get nervous to find where it is. We have to be there at 7:30 tonight.

Yes I see my pdoc today at 3 EST.

I haven't blogged today no. I figured I'd do that after seeing my pdoc. No photography in a while. Even with this new tablet I'd can't use it for photography. Rats. But its been great for what I can use it for! I'm typing away right now and its wonderful. I even wrote an email to a long-time "pen-pal" of mine earlier. We have never met but I wish we would. Its been 10 years! The cat thing is weird. Why do i think its a cat when it so obviously isn't even there?

I just blogged. I will add to it after i see pdoc.

Two hours left till I see pdoc. Hmm.... What to do. My friend who usually comes to coffee with me isn't around today. He went to his mom's house. Puh. Wish i had more emails to write. My head kind of hurts. I don't have any tylenol with me I don't think. I think the container is empty. I could go home, I guess. Charge this machine and get pills. Then I'm even more bored. Anybody around??

Seeing pdoc. Shes late though....

Aww. I hate when my pdoc is late. It bugs me when I have to wait for an appointment. At least you made it on time!

So my pdoc said I seem a lot better than when she talked to me the day I got admitted. She isn't too concerned about my intrusive thoughts! She just said that if I start making plans to call psych ER. I'm confused about that.

Pretty soon, i'm taking my eldest out for dinner then we go to the hospital for his sleep study. I'm going to see if I can connect to the internet at the hospital.

I have psychotic features with my bipolar. I have a small animal out of the corner of my eye and I see myself hanging. I also sometimes feel like someone is in my house. I have an antipsychotic that works pretty good but I still have pop-up thoughts/pictures and feelings when I have extra stress or my mood is out of control. I'm trying to say I feel for you. Hang in there. Mine never completely go away. It has gotten less distressing to have them around.

My pdoc dorsnt seem to think the small anumals are an issue.

Well i found the place. Now i need to find the car in the morning again