[wiltedflower11]

Hi, I am new to this forum & thankful that I found it. I can't talk to anyone in my life because they just don't understand me. I know I'm a lot to handle most days, but everyone walks away. I feel like I don't belong anywhere. I have always felt that way & the one time I felt comfortable with someone, they broke my heart. Everyone tells me to just move on and suck it up, etc. But, I feel like I'm a prisoner of my own mind! I'm either delusionally happy or terrible depressed.... never any middle ground. My mind always races & I exhaust myself. I just need to find some peace.

To PC Wilted flower. I do know what it's like to have no one really understand you. I live with that too. But you found a great place here at PC. They have some great people here that do understand.

Hope to see you around.

[~Christina]

I think most everyone you bump into here will have the same kinda story when dealing with not being understood. It sucks but the support here is down right magical.

Welcome to PC Hope you enjoy this place as much as I do

[middlepath]

I can sympathize. I often feel the same. I describe it as square peg-round hole syndrome : ). When I found this site about a year ago, I felt such a sense of relief because for the first time, people were expressing feelings that I could relate to. They were not the superficial problems that most of the people I know express (ie. do these boots match my dress?). Not that there is anything wrong with that! It would be nice to have "problems" like that. Anyhow, I feel like most of the people here at PC understand, are insightful, and most importantly...will hold your hand when life seems bleek and suggest ways that may help alleviate some of the pain.

Welcome to PC...glad you are here.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm so glad you're here. Hopefully you'll feel at home.

[sincemyfirstmemory]

I have always felt like a "freak". I feel like when people look at me they see a big F stamped on my forehead. I know that this is my illness that makes me feel this way plus my upbringing. I am tired of feeling this way. I push everyone away when they get to close because I do not want people to get to know me that well because when they do, they will "know" me and I fear they will leave me or that I will not be able to handle a relationship. I often keep my emotions for others at bay because I can not handle true connections with others at this point in my life because I have been so depressed that I can't even take care of myself. I don't like to leave the house because I do not want people too look at me. I am going back to the doctor tomorrow to see about changing my meds but I have had bad reactions in the past to med changes but I don't know where else to turn. Thank you for posting.
Tammy

[bronzeowl]

Welcome to PC. I hope you find what you're look for here. I know what it's like to feel so misunderstood. And I know how it feels to feel like I'm a lot to handle. I think my family gets so exhausted with me sometimes. There's rarely ever a middle ground for me, either. I think the only reason there is now is because of the meds. And I'm afraid that won't last long. The mind racing thing is the worst part of it all at times. It's hard to escape it, isn't it?

I was really glad when I found this site. It has become a sort of... safe haven. Because I know people here 'get it'. I hope you find the same relief.

[vans1974]

Sorry to hear you're struggling! I find that most people can't understand or help, since they haven't been through severe mixed emotions. When I'm in a mixed state, I find that taking a benzo helps. Also, I make sure my mood stabilizers are at the proper dose. I love Lamictal and Latuda at high doses. I find attending some bipolar and depression support groups on a regular basis is helpful! Best of luck!!