Any other ladies?

Have any other of you ladies on here had some serious anger issues?
I totally blew out a few months ago over the smallest thing, went from 0-100 and ended up punching a hole in my door in front of my fiance. It was 100% embarrassing but not the first time I've lost it. Just would be nice to know I'm not alone.

Sometimes it seems I'm more irritable than not. I will go looking for a reason to get mad. I've also hit my fair share of walls.

It's not uncommon to have anger issues with Bipolar .. The best thing to do is advise your Pdoc and if you have a T have them help you learn coping skills to defuse your anger before it goes off the chart .. If you don't have a Therapist there are many ways to help with anger ... Meditation , yoga , self grounding, remove yourself from the situation and take a walk or better yet a run to burn off the anger.

Good luck it can get better

I have severe anger issues. I've mellowed a bit over the years with the help of therapy but when I'm manic its hard to control. I can't seems to stop the angry response.

Yes, I have a horrid temper and a hair trigger. It runs in the family on the maternal side, which I find very interesting.

This past June/July I was hypomanic and felt angry a lot of the time and would snarl at my husband for no reason. Interestingly, one of the few times I've been actually manic, I never felt angry. Just euphoric and delusional/paranoid.

Yes I've anger & rage problems. Noticing they mostly come with a manic depressed mixed episode. Like the past couple weeks. It is embarrassing & I feel horrible after. I don't usually break things, I have before - usually dishes :/ , a couple guitars :/ , my truck on a tree stump once :/ , kicked my leg through a door & got it stuck , ... A mostly empty beer can on bf's head - that was a good one ha ��, but that was more alcohol induced just thought I'd throw that example in there for comic relief. This is a very embarrassing topic for me.

It has been a big problem for me... I tend to grit my teeth so bad I'm scared I might break them & sometimes I scream - in car is best. I started doing a thing where I pound fists in air , in private , so I don't hurt anyone nor embarrass /hurt myself. I try to relax my jaw & not pull my hair. But the air fist pounding shakes my head which may not be good, but it gets some rage out.

I have talked to pdoc about it & now get the question from her that I love to impersonate, in the most quiet serious slow voice, she leans forward slowly, "Are you experiencing any (insert pause) ... road rage?" ... I told her I will only tell her the truth if she promises to not notate anything in her book that could jeopardize my drivers license... She agreed and I told her the truth, yes sometimes I have terrible road rage & consider how it would be to have a monster truck and smush the annoying freeway. Then I get scared & mad at myself for even thinking such, what about my children, other people's children, elderly who should be entitled to drive slow... But mostly I would say I am a cautious & courteous driver.

But back to you, if you don't do that often, could it be heat of the moment anger? Everyone , most everyone , has to have major anger sometimes. Please don't be too hard on yourself & I hope your fiancé was not a jerk about it.

Definitely not my first rodeo for this one. I have been doing a better job of not hitting anything lately mainly because I love writing and I have jacked up my hand so much I can't write for too long before it hurts. My fiance handled it perfectly even though he was caught off guard. Usually when I get angry like this I leave the room or situation but sometimes I'm stuck outside for hours trying to cool off so I won't do anything I will regret when I go back inside.
I do know part of this is stress related. At my old job, the stress level was incredibly high and I can't even count the number of times I hit things or threw ****. At my new job, I've only gotten that angry once and it was because of an acute stressor that kept me from working at all. I ended up passing it off to someone else to do.

I actually became enraged over this last summer. It seemed to happen because of something trivial but really it stemmed from insight gained from psychotherapy. Sometimes facing the truth can make us very angry. I stayed angry the whole summer and it ended with a bipolar, mixed episode that included SI and me attempting to hang myself.
Anger is very serious stuff. I've never been as angry and enraged as I was over the Sumer. I could actually feel the rage coursing through my veins. It was horrid. My anger has largely subsided but I think it's because I finally decided to make some serious changes in my life. Now I focus my energy on making myself happier by actually considering what I truly want when I make decisions. I learned I have to pay attention to what I want and not what the people I love want or expect. I believe that in the long run, my loved ones will appreciate my new direction because it will truly make me happier.
I hope your anger has passed and that you've figured out its true origin and what you can do to change things. We are all works in progress so try not to be too hard on yourself because it's really just your subconscious trying to teach you more about yourself. In the meantime, just know that it will pass eventually and you are not alone.

I used to be a lot worse. I've been so snappy before, like trying to find a reason to take offense to what someone just said to me. I apologize after I catch myself, pride was my biggest vice but with effort I'm able to admit when I'm wrong, and admitting I'm wrong to myself helps me mellow out a bit. That's not to say I can just switch it off, which I can't, but I can manage it better. I haven't thrown anything in quite a while.

Yep, I've got a hair trigger temper. I tend to scream at the top of my lungs, punch walls, and break things, whether it be my things or someone else's. I've had the cops called due to the noise our apartment neighbors heard.

Not all people with bipolar have anger issues. I am a calm and mellow person. I rarely get angry unless some one tries to stop me from doing stuff while manic.

Yup, anger management makes me angry.

Well put!! Lol

It gets bad when I'm (hypo)manic to the point I can be abusive. If my husband did some of the less extreme things I can do he'd be incarcerated.

Not alone.
I think I launch less often than before I was medicated, but I can really go off. Yeah, there can be some whopping embarrassment when it's over. It's often set off by frustration. Zap! Like a bolt of lightning. Apparently, it can be terrifying to observe. First time BF really saw it, (he told me later), he just got out of the way and thought, "ho.ly.****!!!" Foot through the wall. After throwing myself repeatedly at it. Stormed out and walked about a million miles an hour trying to burn off the excruciating energy level. And still it took everything I had not to run off the balcony when I got back. It wasn't directed at anyone, mind you. I remember so clearly thinking how I wanted to wrestle a tiger. And that I'd win. Totally serious there. Yikes. It'd be hugely embarrassing to admit to the stories I could tell. I'm sure some might imagine some kind of stereotypical raging woman kind of thing -- a lot of screeching at people, big fight kind of stuff. (25 years with ex. Never had that scene.) Which isn't to say I haven't screamed at people. Hell, complete strangers. Mostly though, it's things. Things and myself that really take the brunt of physicality.

In the above story, I remember the excruciating level of energy and how very very badly I wanted out of my own skin, and thinking there was no way a state like that could be withstood (physically/mentally) for any sustained amount of time. Then I had a really bad mixed episode. And felt that way way too often. It was horrid beyond words.

I definitely get that feeling of energy radiating just under your skin where every nerve feels it and you just need the feeling gone. I know when I start to get that feeling, like an itch I can't scratch, that I'm going a little hypomanic and I need to prepare. I'm getting better at realizing it but sometimes it goes from nothing to get the ***** out of my way. I just started thinking about this because right now I'm feeling that itch.

Yes most definitely I relate to the raging angry but Innerzone got it right for me. My brain races so badly that I get confused then frustrated then look out. Frustration is the key trigger for me.
2013 has been bad for me. My GP gave me an antidepressant that made me depressed then getting off it I had anxiety and BINGO Mixed Episodes which my pdoc and I are still trying to get a handle on.
We got our meat order yesterday and there was round steaks in it which I hate to cook or eat so always say I don't want any. It was a good thing it was the evening or I would have phoned and screamed at the woman who takes the order. As it was I stormed around the house throwing boxes and calling her names for over an hour.
Normally my rages are quite physical and very explosive unless I catch myself and get on my treadmill. It only does 3.6 on it's own but I can make it go faster during a bad episode.
I'm so glad I finally came back to look at these forums today and found something I can relate to without having to search.

Yes major anger issues here. Punch doors/door frames/me you get the just of things

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Thank you so much for posting your experiences. I've always had anger issues myself. The past couple of days have been really bad. Mostly I direct my anger at myself, but some leaks out and I tend to say vicious things I don't mean to my loved ones. I feel so guilty and embarrassed.

Count me in to this club. I am definitely what you would nicely call.....fiery.

It is definitely way worse when I am up or down. And it is the smallest things. That will set me off. My best work so far has been throwing my husbands phone at the wind shield while seated in the passenger seat. We had to get the windshield replaced and people were all confused about how it shattered from the inside. Hehe.

Now you might think that must have been some hell of a fight right. But no. He basically just calmly said something about why were we hurrying so much when we were not going to be late and I apparently did not take that well. He is very patient about this stuff. He gets that there is not thought involved. We even had a good laugh about how he should go online and review the phone case with the story because though the windshield was smashed the phone was A Ok.

Meds def tone me down. I am also getting better ( or maybe it is the meds) at realizing when I am getting into a situation or a convo that it gonna set me off. And if I start to feel the fire building I just get away from everyone as fast as I can in whatever way I can. If I can take a walk that is always the best.

I definitely have problems with this. I'm ashamed, but I take a lot of my anger out on my husband the past few months I've been doing better. I used to have a fit of rage every day! Idk how he puts up with it.
I wish I could get rid of it entirely

I've had "anger issues" since I was a child. Started punching and kicking holes in walls since I was about 14 ( I'm 49 now). Slamming doors was my way to vent before I realized I could kick. Now I'm on Geodon and practically anger free. I stopped all my meds a few months ago, except for the Geodon. My counter tops and table have holes in them where I stabbed them with a screwdriver. Can't go off the Geodon. Too risky. I busted a glass top stove with the same screwdriver. I used to blame it on my father. He's an asshole. Parents divorced when I was four and he keeps a nasty temper and attitude. Always thought I got it from him. I just figure by now, he's unmedicated, and I not. If I go to hell for the people I wanted to kill because they pissed me off...I'll be the first one in line. ...NOT going off the Geodon!

I am a very angry person when manic. I've verbally accosted strangers including an elderly woman. I attacked police officers when pulled over for a DUI; they asked me at the station if I was under psychiatric care lol. It's terrible though bc I'm afraid I'll get arrested and/or the public will think I'm on meth or pcp. In my bipolar support grp one of the guys goes to the police station when he moves to a new town. He tries to educate them on mania, but here still put him in jail for domestic disturbance and wouldn't let him have his meds.

A Ph D once told me that I must have gone through some terrible experiences to have such anger

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Oh my goodness I can relate to some many of the comments here. Thank you ladies for sharing. I now know that I am not alone.