[bumble2u]

I wondered if any of you are under ACt Team ( Assertive community treatment) and if you feel it has been beneficial to you?

I went to an initial meeting yesterday and feel really stupid for not preparing myself. Through that day I had three appointments one with psych, one to assess social anxiety issues and then a psych and social worker for Act.

I think i didn't help myself much, by the time my appointment came at two i could barely be bothered to speak and had lost all will to live. Eyes were watching me from the walls and the familiar swearing and degradation had started to pipe up in and out of my head. I remember saying that I felt the services would be better placed with someone who had hope for the future and could be relied on to actually put in some work to help themselves. I guess I shouldn't have said that but at the time I just felt so bad and didn't

At the moment I have no hope for the future, even though I act cheerful in front of others my insides are counting the moments. A constant battle of guilt, shame . I've tried so many things I'm just exhausted along with the expectations of all those around me. I am totally overworked. My Husband took two days off for exhaustion which is lovely that he can but I can't I've had two days proper holiday this year apart from 10 days enforced incarceration to a psych ward. I guess just shut up and be happy I had those.

I am watching everyone getting excited about Christmas and I just am filled with twisted bitterness and dread. I really just want to finish these commitments and disappear. Sorry i guess this became a vent.

[thickntired]

Hi. First off I'm sorry you have to put up a facade when not feeling well. And I hope you can find more self worth because you do deserve help and access to Dr & meds. I'm in a bipolar support group, and this is just an observed opinion. I don't want to offend anyone. In my group the people who attend ACT are what I would consider lower functioning bipolars meaning they have a severe enough illness that it has effected their ability to get through basic day to day functions. They are in government housing, working with mentally impairment adults, single with no kids and I believe have been on disability from around the age of 18. The bipolar is evident from social interaction & conversation.

I hope you will be able to find a Dr to tell how you honestly feel. Putting on a happy face will just prolong a solution.

Tnt

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[bumble2u]

Originally Posted by thickntired

Hi. First off I'm sorry you have to put up a facade when not feeling well. And I hope you can find more self worth because you do deserve help and access to Dr & meds. I'm in a bipolar support group, and this is just an observed opinion. I don't want to offend anyone. In my group the people who attend ACT are what I would consider lower functioning bipolars meaning they have a severe enough illness that it has effected their ability to get through basic day to day functions. They are in government housing, working with mentally impairment adults, single with no kids and I believe have been on disability from around the age of 18. The bipolar is evident from social interaction & conversation.

I hope you will be able to find a Dr to tell how you honestly feel. Putting on a happy face will just prolong a solution.

Tnt

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Thank you for your reply. There are no support groups where I live. I am very rural. Much or the help is in french even though I am in Ontario. I am highly functioning to a point. I think they were to become involved to prevent so many hospital admissions. I don't think anything will come of it. it doesn't really matter i guess since i'm not intending to remain with these vibrations. Now is the time that has come when all my love will turn to light where light will be forever and it is time to shed worldly things. Damn the body and its evil clingings.

[Victoria'smom]

they don't call it that here. Each psychiatrist, therapist, and general Dr in our family has access (and uses it) to each of my family. Then our therapist handles the other programs we are in. Everyone in my house hold is supposed to be in group therapy and part of a wellness program, seeing a dietitian and exercise program. It was really interfering with my son's karate and completly destabilize wantedeach of us (in different ways) we where pulled real fast.

When we are stable enough to complete that part of the program we'd start volunteering and slowly work to college and work but it doesn't look like that would happen. We don't have the ability to get the support from partial hospitalization because of the balance in our family but do have complete access to the crisis center for both ourselves and are sonson and walk in rights to my psychiatrist. He wants to see me and my husband if we feel like I should call him. This is all because hospitalization isn't the best for my family. So it sounds a lot like your program but we've been there several years so our team knows us more. It works well for us in 3 years none of us have been hospitalised even during psychosis.

This situation has worked so well for us that we are looking into building a similar support system when we move. I hope it works for you to