Finally and diagnosis that fits.

Hi, Im new to this forum, but Ive been around this site for over 5 years. I havent posted in a forum for awhile because I just didnt know which one I fit into. Ive been diagnosed with bpd, ptsd, major depression and now my newest P-doc is saying I am bipolar 2. Ive read up on it a little bit, and I have to admit, it just fits. I do have some of those other things mixed in, but the bipolar is predominate over all. I think though I am conditioned to most of my depression. Because, when I think on it for awhile, I am always depressed even when I am doing my daily things. There are times when I am still depressed inside but overly doing things too...like maybe thinking I can make 25 floral arrangements all at once at 10pm? Nah....thats not what I would usually do, but I did attempt to do that once. Or....thinking OMG IM going to write a book and its so going to be fantastic and everyone will read it. Reality....thats not normally how I am. So I think those might be manic episodes...well not super manic, but still manic. Im really new at this. Ive been in therapy for years and years though. ITs a survival thing. Ive gotten so depressed I go into what I call bed therapy. I just lay there for days and days and dont even respond to people. I tell them, I just have have headache, leave me alone. sometimes it becomes even worse than that, but Im not going into that right now. Well I think what the purpose of this post is, that I would like to have like a e-pen pal to correspond with to help me get through this thing. I appreciate some of your insight on it and helpful tips. thanks. Bear.

I haven't been diagnosed anything except having depression and anxiety. Some things with BPD fit but I dunno. I feel like I'm always depressed but for some reason I can always sideline any emotion and even the depression, and force myself to to things. I always just want to give up and do nothing but next thing I know I'm up, dressed, and leaving for work.

I'm not saying I'm always productive at work. I just do the bare minimum to get by, but I just go inside myself somehow and block everything and isolate myself further. I don't wen know if this makes any sense

Welcome bigbear68!!! When I was first diagnosed, it all added up to me too. I still questioned the diagnosis for some time, partly because it is a hard pill to swallow. Research and learning about your condition is a great way to go. Having ppl to talk to and help when you need it is good. I find the bp forum to have a wonderful group of ppl to talk to. Seen those days when all I can do is lay in bed, not fun at all . Anyway, keep posting.

You can message me when you need too!