Doubting depression

I do not doubt that I have anxiety or hypomania, but I am begining to question my depression side of Cyclothymia and my BPD. Maybe I'm normal and it's the world that is so ****ed up and awful. Maybe I'd be happy if people weren't so horrible.

I'm beginning to understand why people give up. What's the point if the world is always going to be awful and you're always going to end up unhappy?

I have been crying since my beau cut ties with me last night. I'm inconsolable.

What can I do? Nothing is working

I think what you are going through is normal for someone who has lost someone that is close to you. I do understand that this is a bad time for you.

You are not alone! Hang in there! Maybe a trip to the chat room may help?

tucson

I feel dumb because we were only casually dating for two months.

But there is no on else

Hello dont get depressed . You are not alone

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Hang in there. I can relate. Also with the boyfriend thing, I know there were times in my illness where I obsessed over people that left as though they were one of my limbs.

It's not that I think he's that important, but I feel like he is the only one that I have any potential with and I am sick of my love life being a joke. I want romance like everyone else and I deserve it.

hey henrydavidtherobot, it seems like maybe you are doubting depression because when we get depressed, we tend to feel like the world is crap, which can lead us to think that we aren't depressed, the world is just crap! depression clouds our view of people, ourselves and the world, and it's hard to see from the outside that it is the depression causing the thoughts. does that make ANY sense? dont feel im explaining it well.

and yes, you deserve love, and i bet people do love you. maybe not the one you want to love you right now?

anyway sure the world is crappy, things aren't fair, im not denying those things. but depression exacerbates the bad thoughts and steals the good. it wrecks balance, and sometimes we can be so stuck in our depression that it feels natural.

take care.

SO what do I do if things that make me happy aren't accessible to me? That much makes it worse.

try out new things? little tiny things? i know thats so hard in depression because everything is hard even getting out of bed much less being active. i feel like a hypocrite suggesting this because when i get depressed everything seems impossible. but sometimes doing a tiny thing can help. and inertia works both ways: keeping stagnant or getting moving.

or at least try to avoid things that make you feel worse.

Like what things? There is nothing to do here that is new. I watch new movies and play new games or go buy a new make up, but that only works 50% of the time.

online game?
walk or hike somewhere you've never been?
cook?
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jeez i dont know. im not too creative. sorry.

I'm not trying to be mean! I guess that I just get discouraged because I follow all of the advice "do things that make you happy", "tr something new", "work on yourself", "exercise", meds" etc... and nothing changes anything :/

ah no i didnt think you were being mean. i was lamenting my own ability to find things to do. and yes advice can be frustrating cause none of it seems to help with the core of the problem!! but all you can do is try (i know another lame cliche!!)