[LoopyGirafe6]

Is it normal to feel nothing? Do I eventually wear myself out to where I feel nothing? Will my feelings come back? I'd rather feel than feel nothing at all. (Not on medication)

[kaliope]

I suffered from bipolar for over 30 years before I broke down and took meds. I hated the idea but I was at deaths doorstep. after finally finding the right meds, I cannot believe the difference meds have made in my life. I am a full on advocate for them now. I have a successful career, life is good. they really improved the quality of life.

[Victoria'smom]

I get that way when depressed, yes feelings do come back. currently your probably to overwhelmed that your feelings shut down to get through this perceived crisis.

[Hbomb0903]

Originally Posted by LoopyGirafe6

Is it normal to feel nothing? Do I eventually wear myself out to where I feel nothing? Will my feelings come back? I'd rather feel than feel nothing at all. (Not on medication)

I'm here with you. I feel like screaming out for some sort of emotion except emptiness. Flat and no motivation is the worst. Meds have helped me before, but when I'm here it feels hopeless.

Originally Posted by LoopyGirafe6

Is it normal to feel nothing? Do I eventually wear myself out to where I feel nothing? Will my feelings come back? I'd rather feel than feel nothing at all. (Not on medication)

Depressive episodes and certain medication has made me feel this way. The feelings will return when you're more stable. How's your self-care routine? Are you sleeping and eating well? What about exercise, and things like mindfulness, CBT/DBT, etc? I find that taking care of myself helps me reset the emotional numbness more quickly.

[Standup2me]

Totally understand what you mean
The meds are great for me, and have saved me from doing many stupid things.
However, like you, I feel nothing
A day is a day is a day is a day

[wiretwister]

I agree just empty day after day ,but I have some relief with sunday gathering at my local church if only for an hour. I look foward to it. not religion but real fellowship with real friends

[r010159]

Originally Posted by kaliope

I suffered from bipolar for over 30 years before I broke down and took meds. I hated the idea but I was at deaths doorstep. after finally finding the right meds, I cannot believe the difference meds have made in my life. I am a full on advocate for them now. I have a successful career, life is good. they really improved the quality of life.

I agree. But IMO this is entirely dependent on finding the right pdoc. And it pays for a person to keep looking until they find one. That is what I had to do. Now I am almost ready to look for a job. Just one more issue to deal with in terms of a med adjustment and I think I will be ready.

As far as feeling nothings goes, that happened to me one time. I figured out a med change was in order.

[BipolaRNurse]

I recently went back on Zyprexa, and combined with everything else I'm taking, it's flattened me out pretty good. BUT---I am not a) having suicidal ideation over my sorry financial affairs; b) raging angry at the bill collector that called my work and left a message with the dude manning the phone that it was about a possible garnishment; or c) so unable to focus at work that I'll get fired. It's a trade-off.....I don't like being this flat, but right now, it's in my best interests to put up with it.

[updown]

I'm right there with you. I am taking one medication for Bipolar 1 but am in a deep depressive state now, I feel no enthusiasm for anything. It's been really hard to just get out of bed which has made job hunting very difficult.

I also suppress and second guess my feelings as I'm somewhat fearful I will be perceived as being manic if I appear energetic or enthusiastic. But I think that attitude needs to be let go. I need to continue to focus on things that are interesting to me, that make me feel. I would suggest the same to you. Cooking something nice is a good start. Pets are also great.