[Hbomb0903]

This is one of the most frustrating symptoms I am experiencing with this episode. One the other hand, right now I feel driven to do something anything like I can't just be with myself. My kids are here and yesterday was so great with them. Now I am glad they are here cause I'm not alone, but I feel disconnected.

How do you folks deal with apathy, if you experience it?

[wildflowerchild25]

I do experience it. It's one of the reasons I went off meds a month ago. I simply didn't care about being well. I remember when I was a teenager it was something I looked forward to, because Instead of being upset all the time I just didn't care. But now it's damaging. I have a lot of bills in collections because I need to contact my insurance company and I jut don't care to. Too much work. On too of being chronically forgetful and being at work the whole day while the places are open...

I don't offer much in the way of advice but wanted to tell you you're definitely not alone.

[Hbomb0903]

It's why sleep is so appealing. At least then there is freedom.

[hamster-bamster]

Make sure it is not anemia or hypothyroidism, or both. Also, make sure you take vit D3. Just get checked to rule out those common deficiencies.

[Nammu]

This is my biggest problem right now. I have stacks of un answered mail, un paid utilities, cleaning? What's that. I went to the doctors for the first time in months and couldn't tell them whats wrong cause it sounds so lame.

[Standup2me]

Read the messy archives of my life thread.

It was so inspiring.
It left me feeling like I can do this

Originally Posted by Standup2me

Read the messy archives of my life thread.

It was so inspiring.
It left me feeling like I can do this

I agree. I can empathize with what Wildflower said about apathy. All I can tell myself is that these feelings will not last. So during apathetic phases, I try to create very concrete schedules (with very specific, broken down to-do's), and power through them to the best of my ability. It doesn't feel great, but at least when I'm out of the funk, I have less to panic about. I still haven't figured out how to get creative work done when I'm depressed/apathetic, but for now, taking care of the basics is the goal.

[venusss]

It seems as natural defense of the organism against stuff that is worse.... if you are apathetic at least you are not (self-)destructive.

The only thing to do is to push yourself to go through the motions, to do stuff.... and hoping some of it catches on.

[Hbomb0903]

Originally Posted by sidestepper

This is my biggest problem right now. I have stacks of un answered mail, un paid utilities, cleaning? What's that. I went to the doctors for the first time in months and couldn't tell them whats wrong cause it sounds so lame.

I find myself having a hard time telling anyone what is wrong. I can't define it myself. I am going through the motions. But I've reduced what I do to so little since I don't have work now. I at least have the support of a few people and they lift me up.

Doctor soon. Getting out to a support group tonight. Had a friend over today. I'm tired of people telling me to stop dwelling on it. I'm not dwelling I'm drowning in it. But I know it will pass. It can't last forever.