Apathy

This is one of the most frustrating symptoms I am experiencing with this episode. One the other hand, right now I feel driven to do something anything like I can't just be with myself. My kids are here and yesterday was so great with them. Now I am glad they are here cause I'm not alone, but I feel disconnected.

How do you folks deal with apathy, if you experience it?

I do experience it. It's one of the reasons I went off meds a month ago. I simply didn't care about being well. I remember when I was a teenager it was something I looked forward to, because Instead of being upset all the time I just didn't care. But now it's damaging. I have a lot of bills in collections because I need to contact my insurance company and I jut don't care to. Too much work. On too of being chronically forgetful and being at work the whole day while the places are open...

I don't offer much in the way of advice but wanted to tell you you're definitely not alone.

It's why sleep is so appealing. At least then there is freedom.

Make sure it is not anemia or hypothyroidism, or both. Also, make sure you take vit D3. Just get checked to rule out those common deficiencies.

This is my biggest problem right now. I have stacks of un answered mail, un paid utilities, cleaning? What's that. I went to the doctors for the first time in months and couldn't tell them whats wrong cause it sounds so lame.

Read the messy archives of my life thread.

It was so inspiring.
It left me feeling like I can do this

I agree. I can empathize with what Wildflower said about apathy. All I can tell myself is that these feelings will not last. So during apathetic phases, I try to create very concrete schedules (with very specific, broken down to-do's), and power through them to the best of my ability. It doesn't feel great, but at least when I'm out of the funk, I have less to panic about. I still haven't figured out how to get creative work done when I'm depressed/apathetic, but for now, taking care of the basics is the goal.

It seems as natural defense of the organism against stuff that is worse.... if you are apathetic at least you are not (self-)destructive.

The only thing to do is to push yourself to go through the motions, to do stuff.... and hoping some of it catches on.

I find myself having a hard time telling anyone what is wrong. I can't define it myself. I am going through the motions. But I've reduced what I do to so little since I don't have work now. I at least have the support of a few people and they lift me up.

Doctor soon. Getting out to a support group tonight. Had a friend over today. I'm tired of people telling me to stop dwelling on it. I'm not dwelling I'm drowning in it. But I know it will pass. It can't last forever.