[Go Hungry]

I have bipolar I, and some of the psychosis that goes along with it. But the odd thing is that I have a borderline stable delusion. When I start getting hot I transform into a solar deity. I start drawing power from the Sun, things start getting shiny as my vision expands to see the energy states of their atoms. I know the secrets of the cosmos and the mysteries down beneath the sea. It basically rocks. And then eventually my wings of scorching flame come out and that's my clue that I've gone mad again and then I call the pdoc.

Now this may have something to do with the dissociative disorder that I have, actually I'm sure it does, because there's another persona that comes out sometimes, and he's scary enough that I don't really like talking about him.

I'm just wondering if anybody else has recurring/semi-stable delusions?

[TheatreKid]

I don't see myself as a god or anything, but I've had two paranoid-type delusions ever since I was 12 or 13, that don't seem to disappear no matter what meds I'm taking. They fluctuate in strength, sometimes I'm able to shake it off and say no I'm being silly, but sometimes I completely believe them.

The first is that if I have a picture of someone, that person can choose to see out of the eyes of the picture at any moment and spy on me. I have never kept any photos for that reason. As a preteen I was convinced Baby Spice was watching me out of the poster my sister had in her bedroom.

The second one is that if I think about a person in my life, they will be able to see out of my eyes. It's almost a physical feeling, like I can feel them seeing out of my eyes. This one is sometimes paranoid, but sometimes I feel like "cool, let me show you how cool I am"

I don't have a dissociative disorder, or any alternate personae.

[Victoria'smom]

I have recurring/semi-stable delusions but its only when I'm stressed. I talked to my therapist about this last session. She assured me that I am stable but we all handle stress differently. Really, seriously? she told me " well if your halusanating, paranoia or delusional you keep yourself busy from what's really going on."