[OutlawedSpirit]

Maybe I'm not the most avid conversationalist, but some input would be nice. I feel like people on these forums actively avoid my posts. I get a reply or two, but not like most people get. Am I doing something wrong, or are you guys really avoiding me? IRL, I don't have very many friends, and I don't feel like I have very many on the internet either. The place where we can become anything we want. All I want is acceptance. I fail at that, apparently.

[venusss]

I wish I had advice.... but the forums are.... somewhat strange at times. I guess when it's issue that is too personal and not relatable or controversial, it's hard to... have an input.

eh.

[tigersassy]

I'm guilty of being self centered lately. So I don't reply to much.

Tig

[OutlawedSpirit]

Am I just being illogical?

I try to answer if I feel I have something helpful to say. Lately I've had personal stuff going on.

I've been posting in threads in a very selfish way too. If I feel it applies to me, then I'll comment about how it does. I guess this depression is so bad that it's hard for me to be very supportive of others when I'm really floundering. Hopefully my selfishness will change as my depression lessens. I do feel like I owe a debt to PC since it's been such a lifesaver for me. I'm just not there right now.

[OutlawedSpirit]

I just want to apologize for this post. I'm not in the best place right now, and I seem to be under the impression that everyone in my life is on their way out. I don't know whether you want to call that paranoia, a delusion, or what, but it is what it is.

[Trippin2.0]

Please don't apologise, its really not neccessary, I think a lot of us, if not all of us have felt somewhat invisible at times on these boards...

I have not replied to a very many posts in ages, I mostly lurk unless I believe I have something to say that will not only be useful, but acceptable too.

See I'm in the no med minority and I've realized my opinions and insights aren't always welcome here (because clearly I don't suffer like the other members), so I stick to reading and when I do post its mostly on the relationship or BPD forum because meds don't matter over there.

I'm sorry you feel unheard and unsupported, and I'm sorry for the very selfish part I've played in it. And it is selfish, not wanting to put myself out there. I hope you start feeling better soon.

[Curiosity77]

I read your posts, i just don't tend to answer posts all the time. I think there are probably others reading and paying attention, even if they don't write back.

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[wildflowerchild25]

I used to feel the same way. Sometimes I still do. I think it's really a matter if who is on at any particular time and how fast the board is moving. If it's going fast with a lot of people in then your topic can get pushed down before people even see it. I've also found that I you ask a specific question you get more replies because people have something concrete to reply to. When I've posted just expressing my feelings during an episode I gt support but not pages of replies.

Anyway I'll try to reply to all your posts if I see them lol

[TheatreKid]

Originally Posted by OutlawedSpirit

I just want to apologize for this post. I'm not in the best place right now, and I seem to be under the impression that everyone in my life is on their way out. I don't know whether you want to call that paranoia, a delusion, or what, but it is what it is.

Are you depressed right now? I don't call it a delusion, necessarily, though the thinking is certainly to blame. When I get depressed I feel the way you feel about everybody - internet, facebook, in-person friends. I feel like no one wants to talk to me. And that's not the case, I'm just in a vulnerable state. It's like a trait of borderline (though I don't have borderline) - hypersensitive to rejection. You're so sensitive to it that you're imagining it when it's not there.

CBT helps. Finding proof to disprove the statement that no one wants to bother with you any more. Or find alternate explanations to why you think no one is answering.

It hurts, I'm sorry you're feeling like this.

[gayleggg]

Originally Posted by OutlawedSpirit

Maybe I'm not the most avid conversationalist, but some input would be nice. I feel like people on these forums actively avoid my posts. I get a reply or two, but not like most people get. Am I doing something wrong, or are you guys really avoiding me? IRL, I don't have very many friends, and I don't feel like I have very many on the internet either. The place where we can become anything we want. All I want is acceptance. I fail at that, apparently.

There is nothing wrong with you OutlawedSpirit. Don't feel it's your fault like the others said the forums move pretty quickly and sometimes people are just hurting so bad themselves they can't say anything postive so they just don't anwer(that's sometimes me, when I'm really depressed).

Getting friednships started on the forums just takes some time. Sometimes listening to others so you can comment other times getting responses to your posts. But don't feel bad because only get a few. There are a lot of us that have at one time or other been disappointed by the response to our posts. You are not alone.

[outlaw sammy]

Originally Posted by OutlawedSpirit

I just want to apologize for this post. I'm not in the best place right now, and I seem to be under the impression that everyone in my life is on their way out. I don't know whether you want to call that paranoia, a delusion, or what, but it is what it is.

I call it "bipolarism" and it affects me on a daily basis.

[OutlawedSpirit]

Originally Posted by outlaw sammy

I call it "bipolarism" and it affects me on a daily basis.

You make me laugh and I love you for it

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Hi I'm mostly a lurker unless manic. But I do read your posts and care. x

[Standup2me]

Sammy, you made me laugh

[ManicIcarus]

Originally Posted by OutlawedSpirit

I just want to apologize for this post. I'm not in the best place right now, and I seem to be under the impression that everyone in my life is on their way out. I don't know whether you want to call that paranoia, a delusion, or what, but it is what it is.

No need to apologize for how you feel. Hadn't seen any of your posts myself. I'm on and off. Some days I'll post a lot and some days not at all.

[LadyShadow]

You don't need to apologize, I feel that sometimes my posts can be unheard too. I don't answer much in the bipolar section because sometimes it brings me down. But I have to say I haven't seen your posts.

The forum goes fast, and I usually hang out in the Games Section. But I am usually on late at night so if you are ever up drop by my page sometime, I love making new friends. Good luck and don't worry you're not being ignored.

[r010159]

We have a good group of people here on PC. But remember that foremost they are people too with their own distractions and problems and mood swings. They can be here for different purposes and this even applies for the same person at different times. But that is what makes this "place" on the Internet so interesting. But when a person like yourself is truly in crisis, and it is obvious to us here on PC, thrn many of us will jump in and try to help. I think you are finding this out now.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by OutlawedSpirit

Maybe I'm not the most avid conversationalist, but some input would be nice. I feel like people on these forums actively avoid my posts. I get a reply or two, but not like most people get. Am I doing something wrong, or are you guys really avoiding me? IRL, I don't have very many friends, and I don't feel like I have very many on the internet either. The place where we can become anything we want. All I want is acceptance. I fail at that, apparently.

I feel much the same way, especially of late. I think we go though cycles when we feel more sensitive. I find that for myself when things mean a great deal to me I have a hard time putting it down and it comes out jumbled and awkward, harder for others to understand.

[Lobster Hands]

Originally Posted by sidestepper

I feel much the same way, especially of late. I think we go though cycles when we feel more sensitive. I find that for myself when things mean a great deal to me I have a hard time putting it down and it comes out jumbled and awkward, harder for others to understand.

Yes yes yes!

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[Standup2me]

I will respond also