[Angry1541]

Originally Posted by Plzsti

I'm not feeling very supported at all. PC'ers say they are supportive and are there for you but I've had to ask for support a few times and get very little response.

There are a few that actually reply but a lot just pass you by.
For those who do reach out, I thank you so much.

If I pass something by, it's only because I don't have anything to add that hasn't already been said -- if I felt I could help you by responding, you can count on me doing so!

[Angry1541]

Stupid hypomania....got up the morning...buzzing around the house, drank my protein/super green food drink, cup of coffee and ate toast and peanut butter, then joking reminded myself to take my meds (so that my wife would hear)...got up, when to the kitchen with my dishes, rinsed them and then went and started getting ready for work...

Completely spaced my meds! Yup....sounds about right, for the last few days.

[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by Standup2me

Pizsti, why is to going to get worse?

Yesterday I had what I guess was a severe panic attack in the subway. I could see myself jumping over and over again . The next thing I knew I was slumped in a corner with some guy leaning over me saying he was call an ambulance.
The whole time even preceading I had this total out of body experience I think brought on by over stimulation.

It was my first real outing since my mixed episode and I failed miserable.
Won't be going out again for awhile

[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by Blitter2014

Any way we can help. Plz message me if you need to talk....hang in there

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Thanks, it was real rough go yesterday

[Skitz13]

Today just feels like it's getting worse. Feeling frustrated, irritable, discouraged, disappointed, tired, fed up, hopeless, uninterested, lost, and feel there is no where to turn.

It's a real crappy crappy day. It's beautiful out the sun is shinning but I just can't get into it, just want to hide under the covers and sleep life away

[tigersassy]

I've been getting 5-6 hours of sleep at night I wake up tired but I have to get up for work so after I start that I'm wonderful. Full of energy got two weeks of work caught up today and now nothing can keep my focus. I can't finish the remaining thing on my list cause there isn't enough time and that makes me mad cause half my day has been hurry up and wait. I'm getting irritable and want to go spend money and party but I can't don't have any money. Maybe I can paint tonight since no work for two days I can stay up with out having to get up really early if I want. Maybe I can go hiking tomorrow or something to burn some energy. It has been a busy day.

Tig

[BlackSheep79]

Went to pdoc, been in a deep depression. I'm going on latuda and coming off of the haldol. Hopefully it works, feeling down today.

[Blitter2014]

Today Im gonna try hard to come out from under my rock and not slam it down over me the firat time someone talks to me

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[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by BlackSheep79

Went to pdoc, been in a deep depression. I'm going on latuda and coming off of the haldol. Hopefully it works, feeling down today.

My daughter takes Latuda and has never felt better. I hope it works for you

[swheaton]

Not sleeping...this weaning from Klonopin to Valium and then nothing sucks.

[Hbomb0903]

Originally Posted by Plzsti

tried to get myself away from isolating and now it's going to be worse than ever

You pushed a little too hard too fast. Be easy on yourself. You are awesome.

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[Moreta]

I feel horrible. feels like i didn't take my meds today, which i did. ugh

[Blitter2014]

Originally Posted by Moreta

I feel horrible. feels like i didn't take my meds today, which i did. ugh

Hang in there...a bad day is just a bad day...not a bad life. Hopefully tomorrow will be better

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[Moreta]

Originally Posted by Blitter2014

Hang in there...a bad day is just a bad day...not a bad life. Hopefully tomorrow will be better

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Today is a lot better, just don't know what happened last night. I just felt like I didn't take any geodon at all yesterday. I did end up taking some klonopin, cause that always helps with the feeling of withdrawal, but this morning I could barely wake up. I hate klonopin hangovers.

I was supposed to go out to eat with my new friend at lunch today, but she's helping her son with a project. So we rescheduled for Monday night after work. You have no idea how much my self esteem has gotten better since I have a new friend.

Tonight I have an 1800's dance class. I'm excited about that, I just hope my hips don't go out on me.

Tomorrow is our all music sunday at church. We're singing 4 songs. Luckily they're not super high, so my voice can take it. I'm so nervous b/c i have a solo. It's all of 8 notes, but it's nerve wracking. I've never done a solo before. Personally I don't think my singing is that great, but I do love to sing. Thankfully, they haven't told me to leave the choir.

After church I'm going to a church picnic. Maybe I'll get to know some more people from church. I seriously want some more friends.

[Skitz13]

My daughter is making me go out with her today. REALLY not into it but yes I know, I have to not isolate. I'd rather just go back to bed. I tried a few excuses but she's a pretty bright girl and understands. She has BP as well

[Skitz13]

Well I've just ticked my daughter off. I'm not goin anywhere. I'm so tired, can't sleep. I've had 5 hours in the last 2 nights. I hate upsetting her but I just don't have the energy, I feel so bad now

[r010159]

I am waiting on my mothers caretaker. As far as how ?I feel goes, time will tell today.

[Blitter2014]

Originally Posted by Plzsti

Well I've just ticked my daughter off. I'm not goin anywhere. I'm so tired, can't sleep. I've had 5 hours in the last 2 nights. I hate upsetting her but I just don't have the energy, I feel so bad now

Blitter hands over *a box of tissues*

Don't beat up yourself. Be ok with a bad day. Tomorrow us another day. It must be extremely difficult getting you both in your happy place at the same time. Its ok that it's not today.

Don't cry too many tears, rather reaffirm your live and appreciation for your daughters efforts when you can....



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[Standup2me]

Today I am alive, I feel the energy of the world around
It feels good

[Hbomb0903]

My kids called me. It was hard because I haven't felt up to keeping them this past week but it was great to hear their voices. It's so hard not being able to manage normal things. Maybe I will try tomorrow. I just an so painfully uncomfortable with myself and don't want them to witness that.

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[Skitz13]

I hear ya Hbomb, even though my kids are adults now, I try and keep them out of it as much as I can and sometimes that means not seeing them, It's tough.

Take the time for you and then you'll be the best you can for your children

[Skitz13]

Yesterday was not good. I think BP and over reacting to situations go hand in hand. Today, I woke up with the intention on having a much better day. My fingers are crossed.

[Honeydew1]

I feel rested today. If my pdoc doesn't prescribe Seroquel for me, I'm getting a 2nd opinion!!

[TippPatt]

Having a tad difficult time in realizing I'm not coping well with my cycles. My mania versus 'down time' aren't as equal as I'd like them to be. I find I'm blaming myself more and more for the down time and attributing some of it to plain laziness on my part, even though I know it's not true. Sadly, the only means of that realization comes, for me, in taking that oh so needed shower.

Found out yesterday that in the shower if I just sit on the ledge and swing my legs like a kid - as my feet don't reach the shower floor - that it adds a plus mood to a somewhat blah atmosphere. I plan on using that new found tactic in the future. Show tune humming at the same time isn't a bad idea either.

Yesterday's plus -- finding a new zen moment if only for a very short time. Each one counts.

[BlackSheep79]

Third day of latuda and I have the worst headache ever. I hope it isn't the medicine because this is horrible. Going to work which is a huge challenge for me everyday, think positive.