[dubblemonkey]

..it's all about me it was not all about me....

my sister is not mentally ill...

she gets sick and everyone comes running from everywhere...

...and I get sick and only one person arrives....

this has annoyed me...

..mentall illness is so mis-understood...

if you aint bleeding or suddenly needing surgery...

then I am misunderstood...

this has only become sad for me because I have been so many times near death....almost death and completely death...

and I coped with this alone...

I guess the helpless get the advantage...

very poor excuse...

especially when being damaged is considered dangerous

[dubblemonkey]

...I love ...

it's not like I don't!!...

hell that harsh!....to consider I don't...

I just mis understand things...

my illness thrives on the opposites....

I hate me before I like you....

my attempts to be normal fry my brain....

so... perhaps anybody nearby can run for their lives!!

...I would and I have tried...

and I arrived at my ridiculousness...

with just enough room to consider others...

but they are busy being perfect!....

and it's hard to run when my feet are tripping!....

...when these considerations are too much...

I fall away and breath as best I can