[Aquuna]

So.. As my husband drives, I'm going to the hospital for the first time for my bipolar 2...

I've been off meds since early February and have been trying to push myself to go to a doctor since I know I've been getting worse.

Now that I've broke again and have been mentally freaking out for days off and on, without being able to get a reach of my doctor I give in and am going to the hospital..
I was curled up in a ball crying for no reason Thursday night after I attempted to get my doctor and I wanna cut but I know I shouldn't so I don't..I'm physically and mentally tired and having panic attacks..
I don't want to really physically talk

I'm scared to go to the hospital..what has been your experiences?

Sorry for the long post!

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[almondjoy]

Hey Aquuna
I'm sorry to hear you've been feeling that way. It sounds like you're doing the right thing to go. My husband took me to the hospital a few months ago after I'd been off meds and was trying hard not to self-harm (etc). It was probably the best thing to do to go to the hospital. I wasn't admitted (they wanted to, but I said I didn't want to and they made sure my husband kept an eye on me) but it was good just to get a plan and get some kind of direction. I don't know whether you're going with the intention to be admitted(?) or just because you haven't been able to reach your doctor and desperately need some help , but either way, it sounds like you are doing the right thing. Don't be scared, just be honest with them and work with them hope everything goes well!!!

[Lucy777]

I have had several trips to the ER and several hospital stays for my depression. 3 out of 4 times I made the choice to go to the ER. Once I was there I was okay. Every trip to the ER was a little different just depends on how busy the ER is. Its just very hard to make the decision to go out and seek help.

[Moose72]

Hi. I'm glad you are going, based on your post. You will feel better!

I've been in the hospital twice for my bipolar. Basically, you get a schedule for classes. Nothing too strenuous. Some exercising, some gym time, some music, some dbt... really not that hard. The doctors check on you every so often and adjust your meds if need be. You will have a nurse for you every shift. This is great because instead of calling on the phone you just go ask at the front desk for your nurse and voila there he or she is! When you first get there your bathroom is locked which is really the only part that sucks. They unlock it once they think youre safe enough. My hospital even had computers so you never know you might still be able to post here. At any rate, youll be okay. Its new but its not horrible. Its like a little vacation and you'll feel better when you leave. Just take it moment to moment.

[Yoda]

The first day or two are the hardest. After that you get to know the staff and patients and be more relaxed. I thought it to be a cross between a zoo and a prison. Some places offer art therapy; that was helpful to me. You usually are pretty busy with groups and activities throughout the day but evenings/weekends are boring. You may or may not be allowed visitors depending on the particular hospital.

Hope it helps and you get your meds adjusted. Hurry back!

[Aquuna]

I'm nervous to being admitted, I just got done with the beginjing

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[InTallGrass]

How are you doing today? Let us know when you get a chance? Thinking of you!

[Aquuna]

Originally Posted by InTallGrass

How are you doing today? Let us know when you get a chance? Thinking of you!

Thanks, I'm doing ok now, by the time I got there my mood was going back up..kinda freaked me out when the nurse in the registering area called security because of the self harm/suicidal thoughts.

Afterwards, me and my husband were out in a room specifically for psych patients...there was a camera and one way door knob. Of course they made me change and took my clothes while my husband kept my purse

I talked to the doctor on duty and told her I would be more than happy to be on my medicine because I realized it is the best for me and also talked to a guy who is in charge of the psychiatric area and he offered to make an appointment for the county mental health place if I cannot get in with my doctor still..I got 2 numbers to different mental health places that have good psychiatrists.

Knowing it can take time to get an appointment to see any psychiatrist, the doctor refilled my original prescriptions and also up'ed my celexa like requested because of how I mentioned 20 mg worked better years ago than 10....being home now is great..I'm just mentally/psychologically drained now

Thanks everyone for your support <3 I may be newer but I know you guys are all special

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[HALLIEBETH87]

I have been in a hospital 7 times and a crisis stabilization unit twice. It is the hardest the first day because youre not sure what to expect. But you soon feel relaxed and safe. The staff are there to help you and the doctor will take good care of you.