[Capriciousness]

For me it is talking to my husband. I have decided that I simply cannot have a conversation with the man while I am depressed. My girlfriends, no problem, him, no way. I ALWAYS get worse after I talk to him. I don't know what it is exactly. I try to rely less on my friends and more on my husband in dealing with the depression because that seems appropriate but it just doesn't work. I am sure it is my fault somehow. I have tried and tried to make it better, to help him understand etc. He is supportive in the practical kinds of ways. And normally we have a great time together. But depressed forget it. I am done talking to him. I am seriously not having another conversation with him until my meds are adjusted and have kicked in. There is just something about my depressed brain and his unemotional, not naturally affectionate, super logical, and not understanding depression brain that just does not work.

Little ranty but whatevs. I'm soooooooo frustrated. I was doing better today and then I talk to him and I am ejhdksjbesllabdswkduyeyeuiwowlanandkflxljsbakanak!

[Hbomb0903]

Just breathe. Girlfriends are more emotional, and therefore more understanding of our emotional instability.

[gayleggg]

My husband has finally learned to leave me alone when I'm depressed with the understanding that if I need something from him all I have to do is ask. When I'm depressed I can't follow his stories or conversations. But I don't have girlfriends to talk to either. I just withdraw and wait for it to pass.

[Fuzzybear]

My husband also is very logical and doesn't get it Hugs to you

[jesusplay]

interacting with people, so I prefer to be alone.

[bandobsessed16]

i cant handle people at all, and loud noises like people yelling. People looking at me stressed me out. Which just leads to making me feel even worse.

[Theseus]

I'm the logical one in my furball outfit, and cannot abide when he gets nonsensical if I'm depressed. Like Gandalf the Grey, I "do not suffer fools gladly". Fortunately he leaves me alone until it passes. But what triggers it or makes it worse? A perceived slight, reprimand, or insult from anyone, anytime, anywhere, or a perceived feeling of inadequacy compared to someone else. Or it will just come on spontaneously.

[Capriciousness]

Originally Posted by Theseus

I'm the logical one in my furball outfit, and cannot abide when he gets nonsensical if I'm depressed. Like Gandalf the Grey, I "do not suffer fools gladly". Fortunately he leaves me alone until it passes. But what triggers it or makes it worse? A perceived slight, reprimand, or insult from anyone, anytime, anywhere, or a perceived feeling of inadequacy compared to someone else. Or it will just come on spontaneously.

Don't know if this is related or not to yours but I get hypersensitive when depressed in any indication that somebody "doesn't care about me". I am trying to be better with this. But old habits did hard in a depressed brain and that **** can send me swirling.

For me it is being alone and not engaged in any worthwhile activity - - just being in the same old rut of internet, t.v., basic household tasks. I need to be out of the house doing something with someone. The worst is when I'm alone up in my room just lying down at night, waiting for 9 p.m. to roll around so I can take my nighttime medication.

[Theseus]

Originally Posted by Capriciousness

Don't know if this is related or not to yours but I get hypersensitive when depressed in any indication that somebody "doesn't care about me". I am trying to be better with this. But old habits did hard in a depressed brain and that **** can send me swirling.

It's funny, because I take the opposite... I don't give a rat's *** about anyone or anything... you know, now that I'm depressed they can say or think anything they want, because I deserve it. I don't care if anyone cares about me, because it's just me, this worthless piece of barnyard effluvium. Isn't it funny how we all react differently to the same stimuli!?

[Hbomb0903]

Originally Posted by Theseus

It's funny, because I take the opposite... I don't give a rat's *** about anyone or anything... you know, now that I'm depressed they can say or think anything they want, because I deserve it. I don't care if anyone cares about me, because it's just me, this worthless piece of barnyard effluvium. Isn't it funny how we all react differently to the same stimuli!?

I get hypersensitive to what people I care for think as well. Paranoid almost.

[Standup2me]

Rain
and more rain
and more and more rain

Grey skies

Like tears from heaven

[Capriciousness]

Originally Posted by Standup2me

Rain
and more rain
and more and more rain

Grey skies

Like tears from heaven

Oh god yes. Me too. Though I spent the most depressed year of my life in California. Shrug.

[Capriciousness]

Originally Posted by Hbomb0903

I get hypersensitive to what people I care for think as well. Paranoid almost.

Yes not only do I react badly to any indication that a loved on might not car about me but I am always on the lookout for evidence and find I easily. I actually do try to be aware and not let this out on my poor friends who shockingly do still have their own lives even when I am in the underworld.

[Nightside of Eden]

Originally Posted by newgal2

For me it is being alone and not engaged in any worthwhile activity - - just being in the same old rut of internet, t.v., basic household tasks. I need to be out of the house doing something with someone. The worst is when I'm alone up in my room just lying down at night, waiting for 9 p.m. to roll around so I can take my nighttime medication.

THIS. I've been stuck at home alone a lot lately and it's making my depression much worse. Once I get isolated I tend to want to stay that way and it just becomes a downward spiral.

Originally Posted by Hbomb0903

I get hypersensitive to what people I care for think as well. Paranoid almost.

This too, though there's no "almost" about my paranoia. I can read a lot into simple statements, and sometimes have very complex ideas about how and why people are turning against me. Though this doesn't trigger my depression so much as it's a symptom of my mixed states. It mostly goes away when I get closer to baseline.

Sometimes I feel like any little thing can trigger my depression, but I'm starting to suspect that maybe my logical mind just latches on to some perceived minor hurt to justify how bad I'm feeling, and that the depression would've come on anyway. I do really believe that good events lift my mood and can stop the depression in its tracks, though.

[Capriciousness]

Very interesting Nightside of Eden. I get the thing about latching on to things to try to justify the moods. I feel like I spent most of my pre diagnosis episodes doing this. Trying to find and perhaps creating reasons why I felt so completely ****ed up.

[madrikh]

Being alone. Doing the same old things. Boredom.

[Hbomb0903]

Originally Posted by Capriciousness

Very interesting Nightside of Eden. I get the thing about latching on to things to try to justify the moods. I feel like I spent most of my pre diagnosis episodes doing this. Trying to find and perhaps creating reasons why I felt so completely ****ed up.

I definitely agree with this. I have to make things happen for myself or I get down. However, my head definitely has different "states" and it seems they are getting more difficult to sort out lately. The merry-go-round of meds is making me frustrated. I almost feel like my pdoc is playing musical chairs with my meds.

[PoorPrincess]

Originally Posted by Standup2me

Rain
and more rain
and more and more rain

Grey skies

Like tears from heaven

This. Yes. True.
It only took two months in Oregon winter to put me in the underworld.

[Nammu]

poverty.

Barnyard effluvia? Priceless.

I absolutely require solitude whe depressed. I ca be around my roommate becasue he is such a caring and mellow person. Ad I have to have my luvy times with my cat, Little Man. He always makes me laugh and makes me feel so loved.

I used to read all the time, but for the last couple of years, since havig a small stroke, it is harder for me to concetrate on reading.

Movies help, and makig art, and sitting undeer my SAD lamp helps.

But I cannot be around people and have perfected the art of speed shoppig if I have to go out at all.

[shortandcute]

Yesterday, my sister and I were talking about my mom, who won't get out of bed, and just wants to lay there in a drunken or hung-over stupor. She is in some type of assisted living place, and they are trying to get her to get up and at least walk around a little bit. I told my sister that I often feel liking staying in bed all day, but I make myself get up anyway. She told me that if I had a job, then I would be happy to get out of bed because I would something to live for. That really had hurt my feelings and triggered me. Things like that are one thing that depresses me.

[Curiosity77]

Being around friends, coworkers, and family who seem to have perfect lives when i'm feeling bad already, i know that no one's life is perfect, and people always try to show themselves in the best light, but i still feel like my life is more difficult than most people i know. I see people with kids and good relationship, and it makes me feel inadequate and more depressed.

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Originally Posted by Curiosity77

Being around friends, coworkers, and family who seem to have perfect lives when i'm feeling bad already, i know that no one's life is perfect, and people always try to show themselves in the best light, but i still feel like my life is more difficult than most people i know. I see people with kids and good relationship, and it makes me feel inadequate and more depressed.

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Agreed. Very much so.

I can talk to my boyfriend about my depression but when I try to reach out to my family or friends that I've met online they just seem to make it worse cause they don't understand what I'm going through. In the end I just feel twice as worse. However my boyfriend will listen to me when I'm really depressed and crying but I'm constantly thinking I'm a big burden on him.