[Pughead]

If one has never thought of oneself to be ill, how would they ever know the difference between normal and hypomania?

I've always thought of my high aspirations and huge goal-oriented dreams / plans to obtain high achievements were just normal for me. Actually, until recently, I have spent a fair amount of time looking down on others who don't share that sort of energy and drive that I have.

But now I'm thinking, what if all that is just the result of hypomania? How would I have ever known that my expectations and aspirations for myself are not normal?

Now that I look back on it, I can see that it would definitely fluctuate. I'd have grand plans to write several books that would take the industry (software development) by storm. And then I'd fizzle and become apathetic. What's really hard is when you do commit to something and then you have to fight against your lower times to finish it, for me that would be my master's degree. I suppose it could also be taking on a job that's too much work or responsibility, but when hypo-manic, you feel so up to it.

Man, I have to have BP. I don't care what the pdoc says.

[biplol]

{{{{{pug}}}}} I know exactly what you are talking about and I asked that to myself too many time. I even felt like life lied to me all along and I wonder how would I really be if I wasn't bipolar.
I'm sorry hon, I'm not much of a help here but I just wanted you to know that those questions aren't only in your head.
Hang in there, eventually you'll feel ok with whoever you are.
Hugs~

[chooky]

G'day,I know how you feel,I too have while the ups are happening great ideas,motivation etc,but lately I have been working on motivating myself in between times,otherwise I'm never going to get there,and I know I can succeed.good luck and dont be discouraged,just stick with it.I am finding the BP very helpful(hate the downs though),but honestly dont think I would succeed without it.Also have found it easier to get it togeather to lose weight with the ups.with all up there is down,bloody gravity,hang in there mate.

[Pughead]

Thanks guys.

You know what?

When someone does this {{{{pug}}}}

The { characters look like the ghosts in Gauntlet. Does anyone remember that game?

[biplol]

Pug, I haven't seen it, but here it means a hug.
Does it bother you?
Let me know, whatever works better for you~

[Pughead]

oh, no it doesn't bother me it all!



I just was looking at it last night and thought it was funny.

[darkeyes]

Oh I hear you, when I look back and see the things I was hoping to accomplish, and how some things would be unachievable but I thought I could do it. Oh yes, it sucks when you feel all this and then fizzle out and still have to finish what you took on.
Oh, I wish I had an ounce of that "energy" again.
But for now, I'll settle for just plain old fashioned energy, I worked too hard to get to this point.
Keep the faith.