[bilove]

Can our relationship survive?
I dont know how to reach him
I love him
He wants me to leave him alone.
I hurt him by calling him names...
out of frustration I was wrong and deserve his anger
I always seem to be the blame
with out me...... he says he is better

he is on meds now
he goes to therapy
he works in film at a mental heath organization and seems to do well

I was with him each step of the way
I was with him in his psychosis
before meds it was my fault
with meds it is clear to him I am cruel and malicious
he really believes this
I stuck with him through all the mood swings
and some meds he will not take
his success makes me proud
but he refuses to share with me
he has made many promises he has not kept.
from simple house hold chores to small get aways to spend quality time
I walk on eggshells with him but if i say this he blows up
when things are good it is amazing and I fall in love all over again
when things are bad..... we both are broken
he never wants to speak to me again
i cant stop crying i feel so deeply and know he feels 100 x more deeply can it ever b normal for us?

[glok]

Hello, bilove. To be frank, what you describe is full of red flags.

[gayleggg]

I agree with Glok. The red flags are everywhere. He doesn't want to communicate his feeling to you in a calm way(borders on emotional abuse by calling you names). Even though you were there with him through it all he has come out still having many mental issues. I don't think you are going to get the love you want and deserve from this relationship. I would think it is time to move on. JMO

[bilove]

I know you are right....and we know how to break up, as we have done it a half of dozen times..... I just don't know how to loos him......I too, have seen the flags. Now, I will choose to do the right thing and move on...it hurts, however must be done

[TippPatt]

You said he was getting help and is taking meds; however, you aren't. There is a bit of co-dependent behavior here but he's removed himself from the co part and is changing for the better. Trouble is, you're not. Why might that be?

Either way, you're going to have to learn that when men say goodbye, they actually mean it. Therefore, you should set yourself to be finished and learn now to both find your medication(s) and find your new life. It will be better.

Until then, and I recommend this to everyone - as when one is 'stuck' one seriously ends up with a headache - as I am 'stuck' as well at the moment...... one word.....

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