Maybe Inpatient?

So I'm in a partial hospitalization program now for what was a manic episode. Got the official confirmation that I am now in a mixed episode. I talked to the pdoc in the program rossi and he wants me to start tapering off my Geodon starting tonight.

However he said that for the med change he wants to do for me I should really consider going inpatient. He said he isn't comfortable doing what he wants if I'm not under complete supervision.

I am getting incredibly anxious while trying to decide what to do. On the one hand, I want this fixed because I do not like this feeling. At all. On the other hand, I'm scared. I've never been inpatient and he said I could be there up to a week.

My wife says that we can figure out babysitting and what not but what if something happens and I'm locked up? What if she decides she likes it better when I'm not around?

I'm making myself sick worrying about this. I'm supposed to give him an answer tomorrow but all I can think about right now it's how much I want to cry.

I think being under supervision is a good idea when undergoing such a large med change. If your doc thinks it's a good idea I would agree.

Good luck,
W

Going inpatient can be very scary if you've never Been there before. It's scary to leave your life, especially your family, behind. But sometimes it really is for the best. Mixed episodes are the most dangerous to be in. Geodon is not an easy drug to come off of (believe me I know). It will be safer to do it in inpatient. It can also be done faster. You'll be able to get your episode under control faster as well. If your doctor is recommending it, it is probably with good reason.

Honestly I wish I had been able to go inpatient during my last depressed episode. I might have cut my suffering by a couple of weeks.

As for your wife, that is the episode talking, saying she will decide she likes it better without you around. I don't know you or your marriage but I'm almost positive that is not the case. She will probably be relieved you are getting the care you need.

Inpatient is not always a great experience but for many, myself included, it's very helpful. I'd advise you to consider it. We will be here for you when you get out (assuming you can't have electronic devices there as most places don't allow them).

I think you should trust your Pdoc and go inpatient. Your meds can be changed quicker there and you will be safe. You deserve to get out of the mixed episode sooner rather then later.. Let them help you .

I'm going inpatient tomorrow. From what the pdoc said it could be anywhere from 4 to 10 days. I'm nervous as all hell. Anyone have any tips?

If they have groups, participate as much as possible. It will help pass the time and it will look good that you are taking treatment as seriously as possible. And be honest with the pdocs and social workers about how you are feeling, don't just lie to get out faster. Otherwise you're just wasting your time.

By the way I am very happy that you made this decision. It took a lot of courage.

My inpatient experience was daunting but was the best thing at the time, and afterwards I have nothing but positive things to say. I found the scariest thing there were some of the other patients, meaning everyone who worked there was really nice and willing to help. I agree about going to the groups. I tried to do everything I could to get better. So I went to all the groups, and a lot of it may seem like common sense, but it is good to hear sometimes. I had an allergic reaction to a medication while I was there and I am glad that I was there when it happened. They were able to give me a shot, and it was done.

Your wife will be proud of you for doing something you are not comfortable with and for taking that risk. My family was. Good luck.

Im glad your going . just be honest and feel better

Be honest and journal