Frozen heart

She doesn't even know about the cheating. It was not about that. The whole point of me cheating, was that our marriage was in tatters!
The cheating just finally made me see how bad things had become between us, and our conflict just got to the point where we were threatening to separate, and she finally just left.
It wasn't a surprise, it was just very abrupt!
As I said before, I wouldn't normally be so upset, but the fact that our kids are involved and that we have known eachother for 15 years, made or very disturbing.

I realize the grass isn't greener on the other side of the fence. Or to be more direct, the passion isn't always hotter with the other woman!

We both wanted to split! That's why I cheated, I was not feeling loved and appreciated.
However, my wife and have realized that we love eachother very deeply, and it is time to decide to end this marriage forever, or to reignite the fire.
We will see.

I don't regret anything I did during my hypomanic episode. I made tons of money, had to a of fun and did some risky things including seeing another woman. Such is life.

Our split is not about my hypomania at all, it is about years of disrespect and lack of appreciation between spouses.

Well I can completely understand that. It sucks and its good u don't regret ur manias, I remember when...

Anyway, back to you...do you want to make it work? I think that is the question..

Man I do miss the days with endless orgasms though. . Now it's only 3-4 Times a week...lame, lol.

I'm so sorry you are going through this and am glad your wife is back at home. I hope the two of you can work to out.

Well, even though my wife and I are friendly toward eachother, she still is not moving back in.

At least we are friendly, no more fighting. I am not sure of her motives, but it seems to me she is "testing" me to see if I can remain cordial and friendly while she gets some space from me.
Either that or she really is completely done with our marriage... Either way, all I can do is change MY behavior to be more friendly and hope for the best.
I can't control her decisions.

I am just going to focus on me right now, and channel all my energy into music and work. . Me-time.

Maybe a separation was the best thing that could have happened for us.
I get freedom to pursue my dreams... That is pretty frickin awesome!!!

My heart has thawed out, totally. Just a big squishy bag of throbbing emotions again. I am wooing my wife all over again. It is fun, like when I first met her, and tried to win her heart. I am being a gentleman to her, giving her nothing but positive words and kindness. I gave her a really deep, intimate anniversary card today. It is our 13th anniversary this week. Even if it doesn't work, and she walks away forever, it is really exciting to pursue her with passion....much more fun than our recent, mundane marriage of arguing and no appreciation for each other. I think this conflict and separation was like a much needed defibrillation of our relationship. It was dying, and the only thing that could save it was a violent shock!