[cashart10]

If I send this to my therapist do you think she will threaten a miw? She has done it before, told me if I didn't go to the er she would place one on me. I need her help but, again, the hospital will mess everything up. Here is the text:

Do you remember when you told me that if I called you feeling very suicidal you wouldn't necessarily recommend the hospital? I'm needing this to be that night. I am barely staying alive but I have the idea that my family would be devastated to hold onto. I talked to Corey about the prospect of the hospital last night (if absolutely necessary) so he knows how bad I've become but I just don't have the heart to directly talk about suicide. Today (all day) I've been hanging by a thread. I just have to get through tonight, and I'm already tired. Tomorrow is a new day. I'm sorry Dr. I don't need to talk, I just needed you to know how inescapable it feels and how appeasing my death seems. I've just felt like today I will actually do it, or at least finalize the details so I can do it without the kids. Thank God I haven't but I feel like eventually this will be how I die. Thank you for listening.

[lilypup]

If I received that I would encourage you to go to the hospital and I would tell your family and friends not to leave you alone. I don't know what a MIW is, sorry.
I honestly think instead of texting your T, you should be calling a crisis line and heading to the hospital. Keep us updated, we care.

[Love&Toil]

Worried about you Cashart10. You deserve support and help - please go to the hospital.

[cashart10]

Thank you both :'(. A MIW is a mental inquest warrant. I won't text her. I will try to talk to my husband and see what he thinks. Your support is so greatly appreciated.

[Polibeth]

You are important. Go to the hospital if needed. Please.

[newtothis31]

Keep a close eye on yourself. Hugs!

[HALLIEBETH87]

I have been threatened with an MIW. In high school by a therapist who came to evaluate me after self harming there. And a police officer was standing there. I chose to go to the hospital. Going voluntarily is always the better choice, really. Because then you have more control of your treatment. Im assuming you are in the US....do you have crisis units near you? I went twice to one. Its like a hospital but moooore freedom! Youre not locked up where I was at. After 3 days, if they think you seem stable enough to be outside alone, you can go on 30 minute walks alone. And you have to want to be there. No court orders unless you were a real threat to yourself I guess. I was suicidal when I was there.

Its something worth looking into.

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

I have been threatened with an MIW. In high school by a therapist who came to evaluate me after self harming there. And a police officer was standing there. I chose to go to the hospital. Going voluntarily is always the better choice, really. Because then you have more control of your treatment. Im assuming you are in the US....do you have crisis units near you? I went twice to one. Its like a hospital but moooore freedom! Youre not locked up where I was at. After 3 days, if they think you seem stable enough to be outside alone, you can go on 30 minute walks alone. And you have to want to be there. No court orders unlessf you were a real threat to yourself I guess. I was suicidal when I was there.

Its something worth looking into.

I am in the U.S. but I've never heard of a crisis unit. I think I might know what you are referring to though and my insurance isn't accepted. . I will look into it though and let you know. That said, my doctor works for a hospital so when I was previously hospitalized, it was at her hospital so she could still control my meds. This was nice but I was also there with patients who were much sicker than I was at the time (a lot of psychotic patients) so it was a bit overwhelming. The only other time I was hospitalized inpatient I didn't feel as overwhelmed by the other patients (could be because I was much worse and much younger though).

[HALLIEBETH87]

Oh....I went when I didn't have insurance and they didn't charge me.

[January]

Perhaps your pdoc could put you in an outpatient day program. They have them here where I live and I'm in the USA. At any rate, please take steps to keep yourself safe. You are important and I care about you.

Hugs,

Jan

[Cocosurviving]

Yes there are partial out patient programs. Do consider that

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[HALLIEBETH87]

Originally Posted by cashart10

I am in the U.S. but I've never heard of a crisis unit. I think I might know what you are referring to though and my insurance isn't accepted. . I will look into it though and let you know. That said, my doctor works for a hospital so when I was previously hospitalized, it was at her hospital so she could still control my meds. This was nice but I was also there with patients who were much sicker than I was at the time (a lot of psychotic patients) so it was a bit overwhelming. The only other time I was hospitalized inpatient I didn't feel as overwhelmed by the other patients (could be because I was much worse and much younger though).

What region of Ky are you in? I live in Ky too...that's where I went to crisis unit.

[BipolaRNurse]

Not much I can add here, but you absolutely, positively MUST get into treatment ASAP. Nobody wants to go to the hospital but it may be the only way to keep yourself safe. Please go.

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

What region of Ky are you in? I live in Ky too...that's where I went to crisis unit.

Louisville...and I looked it up and there actually is one here. It is completely different than a hospital.

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by BipolaRNurse

Not much I can add here, but you absolutely, positively MUST get into treatment ASAP. Nobody wants to go to the hospital but it may be the only way to keep yourself safe. Please go.

Thank you. I would recommend the same to anyone else. I probably should go, I just have so many reservations about it. In fact, I'm afraid to even bring it up to my husband or my mom again. I will just have to think on it. I know that I will likely come out in the same boat I'm in right now which to me makes it a waste of mine and my family's time. I'm just trying to remind myself that I know it will pass but at the same time knowing I will have to fight this again and again and therefore feeling more defeated. There's surely a light at the end of this tunnel.

[~Christina]

Im sorry that you feel that even if you go you will be right back in the same boat .... If that is the case then you need to change Pdocs and or treatment plans
.. The whole point of getting help is to improve your quality of life .. If your reaching out for help and not feeling better then you need to find new people that WILL make it a priority to find ways to make things better.

Reach out for help and tell your husband exactly how your feeling and keep yourself safe. I really worry about your safety.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Originally Posted by cashart10

Louisville...and I looked it up and there actually is one here. It is completely different than a hospital.

Wellspring!!! Ive been there twice! Its way better than a hospital. You can take your own pillow and blanket and have your cell phone etc

Trust me. BUT do take a book or something...its a little boring lol