[expressiveone]

I feel euphoric. I don't want this to end. But I HIGHLYdespise it just the same. I wonder how could I be sick if I feel so good? I have gotten a lot done. Dare I have hope that once I go to the psychiatrist, this time- I will drop back to normal? I'm tired of crying apologizing. I've been thinking how many years I was depressed then agitated, disorganized. I feel awesome and pumped. But I am scared, not angry. . I hope I don't drift off to another land while I'm awake. I feel alone. I don't like that feeling. When do we go to inpatient?

[pommybt]

I wish I could say something to help. I haven't got my head around this yet. Yes my eyes so puffy I can hardly see out of them. I always always an saying sorry. Today I've had overwhelming guilt. I love feeling awesome and pumped too, but I am always disorganized ! Sending you a hug, it's horrible the alone feeling. I haven't been an inpatient I'm trying desperately not to.

[expressiveone]

Hugs to you. This will pass. We are not alone! I am always disorganized too. Today was an accomplishment that I organized at all. Don't stop seeing a pdoc. They are going to help you eventually. I wish we could be fixed in a snap and an rx. If there are any therapists or licensed clinicians that your doc can recommend ( assuming you are comfortable with the idea) therapy can be your other source of strength and recovery. The more education the better. I am going to my first peer support group tomorrow night. That is another option for support. Hugs. Be strong. If you can surround yourself with people that know and support your health and condition that is th best scenario- even if your boyfriend is mad.

[pommybt]

Thank you, hugs to you back. No defo not stop seeing Pdoc. And yes therapy. Support group sounds good too. Good luck with your peer group. Post and let me know how you go. Boyfriend was mad just trying to get thru to me. It finally sunk in eventually.