Hello Turtleboy and all,

Thought maybe it's time to start a new thread -- the #6 check in is so long now!

I'm feeling hopeful. Am trying to do neuroplasticity, to re-form (reform, ha ha) my brain through turning around self-defeating thoughts, and turning them into helpful, positive beliefs.

How are you today?

[pawn78]

I'm doing good today. Productive, having fun and my daughters are coming over to spend the weekend with me.

[GALAXYGAL]

I slept good last night. No dreams no nightmares. A little discouraged lately. My therapist ended our relationship after 3 sessions on Wednesday because of my psychiatrist (so she said) one wanted to communicate via email and the other via phone calls. I didn’t overreact and handled the ‘good-bye’ with diplomacy. Will need to start over again she was my 2nd therapist in 2 years.

Originally Posted by GALAXYGAL

I slept good last night. No dreams no nightmares. A little discouraged lately. My therapist ended our relationship after 3 sessions on Wednesday because of my psychiatrist (so she said) one wanted to communicate via email and the other via phone calls. I didn’t overreact and handled the ‘good-bye’ with diplomacy. Will need to start over again she was my 2nd therapist in 2 years.

So, do I understand rightly that your providers want to communicate via email or phone, instead of in person? I hope not! This would frost my B*tt, if a provider did that to me. I already wrote on another thread about my (over?) reaction to these techie things in a political group I was active in. Anyway, on a good note, I hope you can find real, live, and excellent providers now!

[Tucson]

@galaxygal: That sounds like a poor excuse from your tdoc. Not very committed to their job. Still, they could have taken on more than could be handled.

I am here. I pulled out of an episode of depression that lasted only a few days, but was still significant. So life goes on. The world continues to turn.

[GALAXYGAL]

Flowerbells, Thank you for your reply. Actually, I do see them both in person. My tdoc was trying to contact my pdoc to set up 'treatment team' relations. My tdoc wanted to communicate with my pdoc via phone call and my pdoc only had time to respond to emails. My tdoc said that she preferred phone calls because my client information would be compromised via email. So when my pdoc refused to communicate via phone calls, my tdoc dropped me.

[GALAXYGAL]

Tucson,

Thank you for responding. To add to my response to Flowerbells, I thought my tdoc was being overly sensitive. After all, I did sign waivers for each of them to share my information the method of communication should not matter. Will have to add that to my list of questions when I interview a next therapist. My husband said that the tdoc may have not felt qualified to help me. I felt caught in the middle without any control.

Sorry to hear about your depression. Short bouts of depression are just as intense as the longer episodes. Glad you recovered. Stay well.

[Skitz13]

today sucked

[Pikku Myy]

Bit overwhelmed tonight.. nothing bad confused about my emotions. Maybe I over think?

[Moose72]

Just ting to fall asleep. Giving up a friend who used to be a good friend. Sigh. Getting a tattoo tomorrow. Mickey mouse from a shot vieo called. Runaway brain as a tribute to my bipolar.

[cashart10]

Drinking wine--which I rarely do but am quite enjoying. I've been depressed the whole day(and for a while) so feeling nice is quite nice.

[Moose72]

I had wine last night.

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I had wine last night.

That makes me feel even better. I was worried about mixing wine and my meds. I even started a thread about it.

[notsokeeks]

I feel like I am stuck in this huge hole. I can see everything happening around me and do long to get out and experience it again, but, it all just seems so overwhelming. It's been over 2 years since my last depression swing so I guess all good things need to come to an end, and it just seems fair to end it on a mixed note. It's this unmotivated, restless, anxious, irritable feeling surrounded by my racing thoughts and inability to sleep.
Saw my pdoc Thursday and we're back to playing around with my meds... here's to hoping this subsides soon.

[Moose72]

Well i only had a little bit. Technically i dont think youre supposed to drink on my meds.

Im still up. I slept in until 3 pm. Ugh. Must get up earlier tomorrow. Going out with a friend. Yay!

[tigersassy]

Doing well. Think I've mellowed a bit, but on the weekend I always seem to do a bit better so we'll see what tomorrow and back to work brings. I'm having some issues with different aspects of intimacy, but we're working on it. Saw my grandmother, who I think it's bipolar, last night. Her health is deteriorating which makes me sad, but that is a party off life.

[venusss]

gotten some messy shocking news.

Went to celebrate Ukrainian independence. Had flower headdress but no umbrella which proved unwise at we had two moments off totally sabotaging rain and gotten wet. Feel bit strange, not sure if it's from being overwhelmed or catching cold.

And I should stop reading debates under news articles. That **** drives me mad. Why isn't it allowed to feed stupid people to kittens? World would be so much nicer place.

[Hopeful Camel]

I was having a pretty good day. Saw my gf off and was relaxing, when BAM! a wave of anxiety hit me pretty darn good. Got up and took some zyprexa. Am hoping it will kick in. better living through pharmaceuticals. Sometimes I wish for a normal day that had no pills, no wild swings, no nothing knocking me out of the blue. but it is not to be.

[Hobbit House]

Had a verrrry rocky day. But we are home now, and things are looking up

[pawn78]

Originally Posted by Hopeful Camel

I was having a pretty good day. Saw my gf off and was relaxing, when BAM! a wave of anxiety hit me pretty darn good. Got up and took some zyprexa. Am hoping it will kick in. better living through pharmaceuticals. Sometimes I wish for a normal day that had no pills, no wild swings, no nothing knocking me out of the blue. but it is not to be.

oh don;t you hate that! Everything is normal and then BAM, out of the blue anxiety that makes you scared to be alive... I get it sometimes when I haven't eaten in awhile and I think maybe it is my blood sugar getting low. Other times I will just get at random times for no reason! I hate it. It feels awful. I have found that focusing my mind on pleasurable things really helps tremendously to get out of the anxiety state.

[lilypup]

Spent the weekend training to go out and speak on mental illness. Had to face a lot of my own demons. Survived.

[Standup2me]

I had a good day. Did some yard-work, read for a bit, walked my dog three times and made chicken burritos for dinner

[Tucson]

It looks like I may be in legal trouble with Social Security. I was not careful enough on how I managed my mothers money. I went per our agreement, but nothing was written down. Now she has dementia. So it looks like I will be visiting a lawyer this week as a pre-emptive solution. Also, my neighbor wants more money to help with my mother. The budget will now be tight.

Life is wonderful. Isn't it? I hope I do not swing into depression or mania over this.

[Love&Toil]

Just back from a little vacation. Did remarkably well considering the challenges throughout. Took my meds throughout. Glad to be home.

[Skitz13]

I'm gone