[bipolar gemini]

I'm angry, angry at the world, angry at my disease, angry at anything that crosses my path. Angry is an understatement, I'm RAGING.
Anyone else feel agitated and angry when cycling?

Yes. I am angry. It is difficult to be bipolar. Add that to every other worry I have and yes, I have anger.

[vans1974]

Yes, especially in a dysphoric or mixed state...I hope you feel better!

[HALLIEBETH87]

YES and very recently. I just saw my doc and I actually feel a little better

[bondgirl]

Sometimes! I get in my study, and make it pitch black, take an Ativan and then the anger seems to subside.

[loophole]

Mostly pissed at anything that looks at me... or (in rare cases) a huge bawling stint. .... sometimes if it gets horrifically bad I don't know because apparently I have dissociation... ( I just call them blackouts).. coming to terms with that has stunk over the last few weeks...

[Angry1541]

I feel like I can't catch my breath or control anything around me....like I try to grasp something to hold on it and...welp...there I go again into a mood shift and I am either laid out zombie like or off cleaning the oven to like new shine....

I feel sorry for me while....crazy...

[Arduous]

I feel everything all at once or nothing at all. Does that make sense?
Sometimes I feel every spectrum of anger, guilt, hate, rage, sadness, disgust... or I feel so numb and apathetic that someone could set me on fire & I wouldn't blink a eye.

[~Christina]

That is what my Mania is ... Pure anger hate and rage. Its hell.

[Bipolarchic14]

Ya and I don't usual know how to come down from it. Last time I took a couple of days off to be by myself and just chill out and it worked. I pampered myself. It was nice. As I recall my last really bad anger spell, I went to therapy and tried to best communicate so that she could give me guidance. All she did was stare at me appalled and she ended session early.... I really think I may need a new therapist but change is so hard.

[Manic Trance]

Can relate to so much here. Yes, definitely have anger, tons of it! Don't know where it comes from entirely, it makes sense to me when it's happening, but then afterwards it's like whoa! Also, feeling everything all at once, and then feeling totally blank, space out, dissociated or depersonalized I think it would be called. It's a roller coaster! Yesterday I ran around like a maniac all day, started drinking over dinner, and then had a night meeting with my staff, I was spinning by the time it happened. Nothing really bad happened, but I was just bringing this really intense energy with a kind of angry edge to it that I think was hard for them to process. I woke up this morning with that 'whoa!' feeling, like where did my mind run off to. Really helpful for me to wake up this morning and read this thread. Thanks everyone for writing!