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Sep 24, 2014, 01:43 AM
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So I just recently got back. A few nights ago I was really close to killing myself. I even started trying to cut myself and I burnt myself with a lighter, and that's odd for me since I've never done stuff like that. Anyway when I noticed that I was doing those sort of things I thought I should go to the ER so I don't do anything stupid. So I went there, they give me some Ativan to calm me down, and after spending the night in the ER they sent me to the psychward. Spent 2 nights there and I just got back. First let me say I really don't like it there. Kind of made it worse and there's nothing to do. But I made it through. They put me on Zypreexa when I was there so there was some med chances. When I got out I went to see my pdoc and she's gonna have me start Brintellix. Took my first dose this morning. But to make matters worse (Because I already feel pretty crappy) my girlfriend broke up with me because the whole thing "Scared her off". So that just adds to the pain :\ Sorry kinda had to rant. I guess just looking for support because I could really use it right now.
Also if anyone knows anything about Brintellix or has experience on it I'd love to know.
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Sep 24, 2014, 01:52 AM
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Never even heard of that med so I can't be of any help on that one. I'm so sorry about your GF. I think it was Marilyn Monroe said something about " If you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." It's hard to find them but there are people out there that can and will handle you being bipolar. And don't be sorry about ranting here. Heck if you can't do it here then where can you rant?
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Sep 24, 2014, 04:05 AM
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I'm so sorry about your gf reaction to this entire situation. I was in a near similar situation to yours and almost booked into a psych ward. Do you have friends or family or a therapist to vent and release everything. Even writing down how you're feeling and throwing it away may help. I'm Confident for you that this will pass when the meds start kicking in. It's just so crap when you're in the midst of a Crisis. This phase will pass for both of us but we just don't know when. I find focusing on just ONE day at a time helps. Making it through each day is one day forward to recovery. I know I'm probably sounding positive right now but I have to keep reminding myself like a mantra that this will get bettering. It's the self talk in my head but every now and again I start thinking negative thoughts and have to remind myself this will pass. It's rea hard.
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Sep 24, 2014, 10:04 AM
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Sorry that happened to you. I've never been admitted to a psych ward, although I probably should have been a few times.
Also sorry about your girlfriend. I know it hurts like hell right now, but it doesn't sound like you lost much. Why invest time and energy into a relationship if that person is going to bolt out of the door just when you need them the most? Take care. I hope things turn around for you soon.
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Sep 24, 2014, 10:38 AM
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I been hospitalized 6 times in my life...I thought that was a lot. I found if I do the classes they have the time goes by much easier. But I agree there is no fun by getting hospitalized. I too hated it on the inside.
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Sep 24, 2014, 10:39 AM
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Zyprexa will help with mood stability and to take away bad thoughts, since it's a atypical anti-psychotic. Brintellix is an SSRI anti-depressant that I liked, but then it pooped out. I hope they work for you and you feel better!
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Sep 24, 2014, 10:44 AM
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Sep 24, 2014, 01:59 PM
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Zyprexa has been a miracle drug for me, it's smoothed out my mood variability and stabilized me for the first time in years. I hope it works as well for you.
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Sep 24, 2014, 02:42 PM
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I'm so sorry to hear about yr gf...that hurts and I hope you'll be ok. She doesn't deserve you anyways. If someone can't take us at our worst then they don't deserve the better part of us. I don't know anything about yr New med but I wanted to let you know that yr not alone...we are all managing as best we can. How long were you with yr gf?
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Sep 29, 2014, 04:47 PM
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People who can't "deal" with other people's problems are just lucky jerks who haven't had to deal with any real problems of their own. What she did shows a lack of empathy. Maybe one day she will truly understand what that word means.
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