[HALLIEBETH87]

I went to Emotional Support for....emotional support but its just chatting.

I went through all that cycling and committed to all kinds of stuff. I was doing so good again last week. Now I am overwhelmed and the anxiety is getting worse. I simply just don't want to do anything but I don't want to let anyone down either.

I just want to be alone. In my room. I slept through two alarms today. Didn't get up til 11...tenhours of sleep and Im ready to go back to sleep.

I hope this lithium upped dose will fix me. Ive been so irritable and anxious

[Lobster Hands]

Yes, the chat rooms are really horrible lately for people seeking support.

I feel the same way right now. I'm still in bed and I have been since 6 last night ...I have work in 2 hours

We are here for you if you want to talk, hallie.

[HALLIEBETH87]

PC was different when I joined. People actually talked to people and I have done my part in that, mostly through PM in chat or regular messages. I have been here almost ten years and its changed. All it is now is inappropriate subjects in rooms that are not supposed to be in. And hatefulness. Im already irritable and it just ticks me off. Im having trouble controlling myself lately.

I just want to talk to people and get support but no one cares. Whats the point of even coming anymore?

[Lobster Hands]

Pc was different last year when I joined...I agree with everything you've said.

Occasionally there are people who care though. And it's because of those people that I've stuck around the chat rooms.

[intergalactictraveler]

HALLIEBETH,

Sorry you're going through a rough patch. I dropped out of checking in for similar reasons. I'd post about things I've read or learned from experimenting on myself or simply in support of someone else and it was like, for the most part, that I didn't exist. Rarely did anyone comment or respond. I began to see that some folks on here just like to talk or whine and weren't interested in what someone else had to say. It seemed like there was a clique and anyone else was considered an outsider. Therefore, feel free to pm me and I will respond.

[HALLIEBETH87]

There is a clique in chat. Every.Single.Time.

[~Christina]

Ummm I have never done the chat here.. Just never appealed to me.

I do know how you feel about how things have changed around here , your not the only one thinking this way.. But I think everything waxes and wanes.. We are about due for an upswing.

I hope your new dose helps. You know you can always PM me

[HALLIEBETH87]

I haven't gotten to start it yet! I am going to pick it up at the pharmacy in a bit. I want this to STOP!!!! I don't want this to get bad again. I'm getting irritable again like last time and starting to get near tears really easy too. The anxiety still plagues me. I contacted my preacher about all the things I'm involved in and said I need help. I cant do it all. That should help a little. I'm so tired of this.

[Bpfroggy]

Hi Halliebeth87! I'm sorry you are getting frustrated and having a hard time. I am here for you if you want to talk - feel free to PM me at anytime and I will get back to you ASAP. I know what the mood swings are like - they really stink . We are here for you!

[Mountainbard]

Hi Halliebeth-- I'm sorry you had a negative experience in Emotional Support today. I've just joined the site. Yesterday afternoon ES was excellent. This morning it stunk, to put it bluntly. I'm an optimist when I'm not depressed, so I'll be going back. Meanwhile I totally get the desire to just sleep. Mine stems from MDD. I just pulled out a 13 month depression. Now that stunk.

If you need someone to talk to I too will always answer a PM when I'm online. I hope the upped lithium dose will help you, too.

all the best,
Randy

[Curious651]

It sad to hear how thing we're since I am new to this as well. I hope you don't give up since this can be good if the members want it to be. I have noticed in my short time that some of the chats are superficial and laxidazical when it comes to any topic or meaning. I am trying to take what I can out of it. I am more then willing to write and talk to anyone. I try and get on once a day. My thoughts are with you. Be safe.

[StayinAlive]

I'm new here, too, and haven't tried the chats. I've seen a couple of threads take a bad turn, but mostly I've been amazed at how supportive and nice everyone is.

For what it's worth, I care what's happening with you and hope your med adjustment helps.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Im irritable lately. Im not trying to be mean. But it is true that PC has changed, A lot!