Not in the best of moods

Ive been is mental health care since 2009 including constant therapy. Nothing seems to help me and nobody seems to take me seriously. No matter who i vent to my treatment team usually changes attitudes towards me and all it does is trigger me and make me feel worse. Sometimes i wish i didnt even exist or live. I mean, i have no job im not allowed to work i live in assisted living i dont have any friends and not much family. Im not doing anything but living off the government. Who would care?

ive been in the mental health system since 1985, i know now there was no other place i should have been. i have been on almost every med there is and only recently found ones that sort of work. i go to see a t and don't work, i am schitzoaffective with bipolar too. now my son is having the same issues i had when i was his age-23. i also don't like it when i'm not being taken seriously when i'm being seen and i know how it feels.

Have you changed your treatment team at all since 2009? It may be worth it to that. I find my team took me more serious when I wrote things down because it was easier to "hear" what I was saying and the destress that I was actually in. I know you live in an assistant living facility but can you go into a partial hospitalization program to overhaul your meds, and your medical team? You may meet some people in the partial hospitalization program. It's hard to keep friends when your bipolar because you become a seasonal friend because of the depression.

I live completely off the system too and it sucks. It feels ****** but honestly trying to be as productive as we can, even if that's just being nice when we are able, is enough. I've made friend's here and feel like I'm part of this community, helping here is contributing to a better world. You aren't a drain on society as long as your as nice as you can be.

I understand how all of you feel. I have pretty much isolated myself due to my bipolar. Tired of being judged and not accepted. I am lucky. I do have a great Dr and new therapist. Good luck to each of you.

Sorry to read your feeling that way 8. I enjoyed are talk the other night. I know I am not on much, but I enjoy when I am on for the most part. Unless having episode. I can't suggest anything others have not stated already. Try to get out and do something different. I made some Italian food tonight just to do something. Did not eat it, but gave me something to do. It distracted me and improved my mood a bit. Can you try a museum or something? Stay safe, thinking about ya,

The saying the Squeeky wheel gets the oil ? Be your own best advocate.. If your current treatment team isn't working hard with you to help improve your quality of life then let them know in no uncertain terms that you want,need and deserve better.

I was mostly venting. I did tell my current treatment team your suggestions and im apart of a treatment team known as RHD. I get lots of things for free that most people do not.

Hope it works out for ya.