[luan89]

So, i only took my risperidone 3 days and i stopped doing it. I felt like i could do it my way and things would get better. Like it was all about me trying to improve every aspect of my life and i would have no problem anymore.

I even started losing weight and yesterday i started going to te gym but today i feel so... bad. like i want to cry but i feel like if i let myself fall again into depression, i would've failed.

I'm tired of being a mess. I want to be ok. I'm so sad rigt now... i'm gonna wait for tomorrow to see if it was just a bad day... I don't want to take meds.

I don't want to talk to anyone cause i'm supposed to be trying to get better by myself.

[Darvula]

Hi Luan. Are you new to Risperidone? My mum takes that. She has issues with it, but then drugs effect everyone differently. Going to the gym is a good start. Stick with it. If you don't feel like going today, go tomorrow. Same with talking to people, etc. Tomorrow is another day, and if you can't do it today, see how it is tomorrow. Taking things day by day is one of my main coping strategies. You say you are supposed to be trying to get better by yourself. Who has set this goal - you, your doctor or someone else? Maybe you could consider that it is okay to talk to other people if they can help you feel better? Would you like to? Do you have sympathetic friends? I don't like talking to many people, but there are one or two who make me feel better, even if we don't talk about my issues. Just talking to them about other stuff can be comforting. Hang in there. Tomorrow will be a new day.

Darvula

[luan89]

Originally Posted by Darvula

Hi Luan. Are you new to Risperidone? My mum takes that. She has issues with it, but then drugs effect everyone differently. Going to the gym is a good start. Stick with it. If you don't feel like going today, go tomorrow. Same with talking to people, etc. Tomorrow is another day, and if you can't do it today, see how it is tomorrow. Taking things day by day is one of my main coping strategies. You say you are supposed to be trying to get better by yourself. Who has set this goal - you, your doctor or someone else? Maybe you could consider that it is okay to talk to other people if they can help you feel better? Would you like to? Do you have sympathetic friends? I don't like talking to many people, but there are one or two who make me feel better, even if we don't talk about my issues. Just talking to them about other stuff can be comforting. Hang in there. Tomorrow will be a new day.

Darvula

I'll stay in bed for today. You're right.

I set that goal. It's been 2 weeks since my last visit to the doctor, it was supposed to be once a week but i felt like i could do it on my own.

I don't want to bother anyone with my issues... I was even feeling suicidal earlier today... I'm super sad. But at least i know it's not gonna last forever.

[Darvula]

Right, it's not going to last forever because bipolar is a cycle, right? You know that you will come out of this current low. It's a matter of taking it one day at a time. Tomorrow you can reassess the situation. Every day you can reassess the situation and do what you feel capable of doing on that particular day. You've managed two weeks already - that's great and a real achievement in itself. It's okay to have a bad day now. Maybe now is the time to go to see the doctor. You've already managed 2 weeks without seeing him, so now you can go and feel good that you did well for two weeks. Setting manageable goals short-term is a lot more effective than trying to go for a huge long-term goal like "I'm going to do this totally alone for a long time with no help". Those goals just drain you after a while. Set yourself lots of short term goals instead and feel good about the ones you achieve and try not to beat yourself up over the ones you can't manage yet.

And please, if you ever feel suicidal, talk to someone. You can talk to us on here. There are loads of us online all the time. Someone will definitely help.

Darvula