Thinking out loud

i find myself in different thoughts at different times. Some nights I can come on here and be positive while respond to others while other nights just don't have the will. Tonight is one of those nights I just don't have it. I am forcing myself to write this. Just want to do nothing. When I try like this, I seem to become extremely agitated over posts and I read into posts like they are being sarcastic. I set mood to calm trying to fool self and be better. Yes, I am putting mask on in here (before someone states that). Is it me or is it common to go through moods where I just don't give a crap? Then other times I truely do care and I don't want ppl hurting. Hummm, this is a dumb post. Just trying to process.

Some days you have something to give and other days you don't even have enough energy or mental strength to get yourself successfully though a day. And oh yes the facade that we put on. Most of the time people know something is wrong but the facade stops you having to explain yourself to everyone. And then there is the angry side, where you don't have enough strength or will power to put up a facade. You still care, but the pain is just too overwhelming or the emotions too strong to be able to hold them back. It can come across as not giving a crap, but in reality it's a cry for help "I'm in so much pain that I cannot hold it in".

Not a dumb post at all. It shows the pain you are in, the anguish you feel, the internal turmoil of emotions. Hang in there, I hope your feeling better soon.

Hugs

This is not a dumb post. I completely understand when reading and in a bad mood putting a sarcastic tone on for everyone or just not giving a crap. Feel better soon.

PC is a give and take . give when you can, take when you need.

The one thing to keep in mind is "if" PC is triggering you, Just X out for a while. I have had to take breaks( hours to days ect) at times, most everyone does.

I'm sorry your struggling right now, things will improve

Couldn't have written that better myself! I think you read my mind

So glad I'm not the only one who thinks like this sometimes.

thanks for the response. Sorry I was in a strange place which I don't like feeling. Appreciate the feedback. Yall are great

as another poster clarified, this is not a dumb post. This is a good place to sort of talk to yourself, let out all the stuff, maybe even rationalize it.

Hugs and stuff

Yup, happens to me too.
Just different response in different times.

But one thing that has remained constant in whatever different variety of posts (esp. the ones from people in a bad place at that moment) is feeling incredibly sorry for the people, and almost able to feel their pain at times. Which is why I reckon staying here permanently might be bad for me (esp. right now when I'm in a bad place myself).

Also feel quietly proud of the numerous people who are going on valiantly with their daily struggles. Almost envious of their tenacity.

I know exactly where you are coming from. It seems to come with the territory of the human condition doesn't it? Especially in our cases. Sometimes I just have zero ***** to give hahaha.

I can really relate to what you're saying. Some days I frankly don't give a **** about what others think of my mood. I'll be completely un-involved in everything, and put up no pretense of not being the most miserable person around.