[jesusplay]

I have some irrational fears, it's like I feel these things are real, I my thoughts don't agree.

I've started to sleep with my door open and I constantly feel like a ghost or something evil is waiting in the hallway. I feel fear, like I'm about to be murdered.

I know it's not real and I don't see anything and I walk around in the dark and don't really turn on any lights cause I don't care, yet I still feel fear.

This is pretty recent, within the last couple years.

I confront the fears yet I still "feel" frightened, but I think in my head I'm not, my body is disagreeing with me.

[MujerTriste]

Originally Posted by jesusplay

I have some irrational fears, it's like I feel these things are real, I my thoughts don't agree.

I've started to sleep with my door open and I constantly feel like a ghost or something evil is waiting in the hallway. I feel fear, like I'm about to be murdered.

I know it's not real and I don't see anything and I walk around in the dark and don't really turn on any lights cause I don't care, yet I still feel fear.

This is pretty recent, within the last couple years.

I confront the fears yet I still "feel" frightened, but I think in my head I'm not, my body is disagreeing with me.

Hi. I think fear is part of Bipolar. I don't know what other people go through but I feel very ominous feelings all the time. I feel like I can sense the next big earthquake is coming. I get convinced that its about to happen any minute. But I am not preparing for it, I just know its coming. I can feel it in my bones. I feel ghosts, I feel like the bay bridge is going to crumble beneath me every time I cross it, and I feel fear. Tons of fear. But an ambivalent fear like the one you described.

I take anxiety meds. It helps me get across the bay bridge... but it doesn't fix it all the way. I have also tried various therapies to help with phobias etc.
Hope this helps

[Blitter2014]

Sounds to me like a bit of paranoia creeping in. I do agree with mujer that fear is often associated with anxiety/depression but that fear becoming overwhelming is the start of paranoia. If it has only started developing more recently I would be talking to your pdoc about it and seeing if you can see any correlation between the feelings and recent med or other changes. Might be worth tracking the way your feeling and taking that along to your next appointment as well.

Stay safe and I hope you find an answer soon. Sounds like what your going through is no fun at all.

Hugs

[Imah]

I absolutely have what I term as unreasonable fear. Because they are not part of something that makes sense, like if a stranger was rattling the doorknob - reasonable fear - suddenly being totally aware of not being alone (when I am alone) unreasonable fear. If I go to work today, I will die (unreasonable fear) ghosts follow me so that I can help them. etc. For me, I think it is part of the delusional part of bipolar 1. Talk to professional of course, but yes - this is common in my opinion.

Best of luck to us all.

(edit added: I keep a notebook, that I made into a graph to chart my daily physical and mental symptoms and unreasonable fear and unreasonable anger are 2 things I chart)

[Darvula]

Your fears sound like pretty typical BP delusions - I think a lot of people have delusions related to the supernatural. They come and going depending what your mental state is like.

Darvula

[lacerta]

I do have fears similar to this when I can't bear with something in my life. When I'm running away from my emotions they transfer to irrational fear. Thinking of what has happened in my life recently that I try to escape, then putting in down on paper helps to get away from it.

[Love&Toil]

I can totally relate to your fear, I have had the very same ones, esp. when I was in university years ago. What helped me get through was cognitive-behavioural therapy and social support. It didn't make it totally go away but helped me get through it.

I think my meds help this to go away now as I haven't had this again since being on them.

You sound very self-aware.

[Crazy Hitch]

I have these paranoid thoughts usually when I'm going through an episode. I think there are "baddies" out there that could harm me.

[~Christina]

Yep same kinda issues here... It waxes and wanes depending upon where I am at emotionally.

I have to have the closet door closed since I moved in to my home 10 years ago , never had a problem before .

Yep just more fun-ness that Bipolar can bring to us wrapped up with a bow on top.