[Raindropvampire]

Who here has a parent that is bipolar AND that parent damaged them on a fundamental level because of it? Well I just realized tonight I am becoming my mother. The details don't matter just suffice it to say that I destroyed a person on the phone. Brought a bazooka to a knife fight and just decimated them emotionally. There's just so many little things I just realized. ICK feel the need to go bash my head into a wall until I forget this.

Now I have a phone call to make and a profound apology to make double ick

[Crazy Hitch]

You don't sound yourself at the moment. You've got a lot going on through your mind.

You may want to consider waiting a day before contacting the reciprocate time to wind down as they may currently still be highly emotive and unreceptive to your message, no matter how well intended.

What soothing things can you do at the moment to unwind? Take a hot bath? Read a book or magazine?

When do you see your pdoc again?

[Raindropvampire]

LOL Haven't gotten to see my Pdoc or T in months and that won't change until after the first of the year. No psych meds can't afford that either.

I'm at work been doing mind numbing paperwork to just zone out and relax. Playing the arcade here too.

Too late on the not calling but it went about as well as it could. Actually good thing I called didn't realize how far down I knocked her.

[Crazy Hitch]

Sorry to hear there is a delay with meds and pdoc. Can't be easy.

Playing games is a good distraction.

Well at least the call went as well as it could have and you've come to some realizations. I'm sure it's not your intention to want to knock her down.

Be safe.

[Darvula]

Originally Posted by Raindropvampire

Who here has a parent that is bipolar AND that parent damaged them on a fundamental level because of it?

Yep. My hand is up. My mum was diagnosed as schizophrenic, but I think she is actually bipolar.

[Raindropvampire]

My granny was bipolar, my mom is, I am and my sister was. I am the first in our family that actually got help and figured out what was wrong. EVERYONE else in the family just wrote it off as hormones and the women in our family were simply crazy and volatile

Always swore I wouldn't be my mom. I would be different and blah blah blah. Guess I failed yet again

[smartbutcrazy]

Yes both parents had a mental illness with inadequate coping. I got help and learned some coping skills. Now I see my daughter exhibit the same erratic emotions and behavior as I had at that age and instead of helping I make things worse!

[gloamingone]

I suspect my mother has borderline personality disorder, but it was never diagnosed. I've spent my whole life trying not to be like her. Luckily, it's worked.

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[tipper1492]

My mom had some strange ways about her. If she had been BP, or what ever, she would never admit it to family or friends. She was too upper class to do such. She truly spoiled me, but she had this way of comparing me to others I should be like. Her moods could change but mostly up and up. I don't know. Our relationship most certainly could have been better.

My father was at least 20 years older than mom. Maybe his sperm made me BP. He was old when he died in a vehicle accident, and that was a Friday, Dec. 15th. Seven days later, Dec. 22, 1950 I was born. Of course I never knew him, nor have any feelings for him due to this. Actually think the terrible accident may have cause mom lots of resentment also possibly toward me.