I Aced that test!

The good news is I feel better. I'm going to start swimming in hope that I won't gain weight. I'm not eat everything on the house but I have dry mouth ,cotton mouth . If I don't gain weight then I'll ask for symbyax and hopefully I can wean off lamictal and only be on symbyax. I would be more likely to comply when I just have a gel cap a day. Now here's the issue, we travel and are poor meaning we can't always pay for our meds when we're out of state. This causes us to inconcistently take our meds. Now that we live around family we won't bw traveling as much. Here's my problem if I stay on my current meds It would be $263. Which between begging, borrowing and stealing is possible. The symbyax generic cost $170 re if I have to pay out of pocket but that's a huge difference I don't know if I could find that much money. On the other hand the symnyax is one gelcap which is more likely I'll stay on it then the zyprexa seperate pill. I know I have 3 weeks to decided but both my husband and I want a Med changes. He wants topamax and Wellbutrin as he 's overweight.

Would you combined meds even if you'll pay $170 more or would you keep it as sepeate pills?

I take 6 prescription pills a day, not counting supplements and weekly injections, and it is not a hassle. I'm sure there are plenty of people who take even more.

I think if it's important enough, you will do it. And if it saves $170 to take separate meds, that's even more incentive. But that's me. I have no safety net—no where to go or anyone to be with if I don't manage things for myself. You have to weigh the risks/benefits and be motivated. You've come a long way, from what I've read. I think you can break that old pattern and be on your way to a more stable life.

Never thought of a maxed out PHQ-9 as 'acing' it... but I chuckled

licketysplit- Taking any type of pill that isn't coated comes back up which is an awesome for someone that really hates meds.

My biggest worry is with taking them separately it's more likely for me not to take it AP (in the long run) when unwell.

You are doing really really well Miguel's Mum. The road is rocky, the path difficult, but you have not given up, not given in, and for that you can hold you can hold your head high and feel proud. Really proud.

You not only can do it, you are.........

I wish you continued success

So.... life.

My therapist is squishy, very, very, squishy. I talked myself into then out of IP. I really don't think he'll be able to handle when things are tough for us. He refused to let me call my thoughts normal so the new word is frequent. I think the only reason I'm typing this at home is I'm charismatic, and I assured him I'll take my meds until next appointment. I detracted him from the risk assessment which I think he'll do every week. If he can't handle me "normal" then I think I'll end up over medicated and constantly in acute care. My husbands therapist is Squishy too. I'm scared that my son's therapist is to squishy for him because he "conveniently" forgot to mention he's hearing think and having racing thoughts. I really hope she picked up on it or my therapist says something to her. I already feel over medicated. I hope my pdoc isn't squishy. My husband's T already said to him that I deal with a lot.

squishy= easily un nerved, easily concerned .....


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Forgot to mention we talked about whether or not I'm a good parent. How I am not responsible for his actions even if it's genetic. My lack of attachment to him and how apathetic I am.

You are not making sense.

Did you coin this? it is brilliant!

But, can also mean that you are hypomanic

can also mean that you are hypomanic I feel weird like I have to run but it comes after the zyprexa. If I go to bed right after it's not uncomfortable but I still have it when I wake up but not as bad. I can tell myself it's energy to get up and do things. I'm hoping I'm not gaining weight because this seems like a good combo. Just I'm apathetic and have no sex drive. I'm hoping the lower dose will make it better.

You need to give yourself time staying on your meds full time, no fiddling lol

Your treatment team also needs to get to know you all well, so they can and will be able to understand all the ins and out of your individual needs.

Stay on track

I figure I'll ask for: 3/25 symbyax and very, very slowly weaning of lamictal with 5mg of zyprexa PRN. and enough lamictal if I crash and burn. with new pdocs approval. I really want the apathy to go away. Our therapists look at us like we have three heads when we say "this is nothing, things will get much, much worse." The strange thing is my T use to work in the crisis field. It's interesting how I always get crisis unit people, says a lot about me. I see him the 10th I'm thinking of looking through my posts and picking the "worst"

I've nothing constructive to add other than....

(((((Miguel's Mom)))))