I Aced that test!

Victoria'smom · Nov 14, 2014, 08:39 PM

..... the depression screening. 3's straight down

. I was asked if I was going to commit suicide any time soon. My new PCP is awesome! He went over psych meds. re-wrote them like nothing, something NO ONE would do. He made sure our meds are covered in Dec. He wants me to take the lamictal until seeing pdoc as viibryd isn't covered (as long as I'm eating) but he's going to try to get everything prior authorized. I'm not on the PRN 1. He doesn't believe in PRN 2. Tardive dyskinesia.

He did mention that I may have to live with serious side effects because BP is serious and I need an AP but it'll be a lot harder for me because of all my other neurological issues. That I have plenty of psych drugs to attempt before settling. That most of my husband's medical issues are due to not having BP under control. He has us going to a dietitian. He asked me to never answer the sui thoughts as a 3 unless I have doubts I wont make to my next appointment but he appreciates my honesty. I did gain weight from the seroquel no idea how much as they are taking my weight backwards and removing weight/BMI measurements from the papers I receive. He set my husband up to get his keloids removed. It's a walk in clinic so walk in if we need him. He's not against the baker act (5150 / involuntary) and will use it. I will probably be baker acted more than once by him. We go back in 3 months if we don't walk in sooner.
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My husband's T has been urging us to sit at the pdoc's office until a cancellation. People don't seem to understand driving cost's money. My husband is now in a walk in basis for his T and if it's an issue with me it's "just get her here".
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Why am I the one people seem more stressed about even after they tell me I'm the one holding everyone together? Thou I did suggest giving our son up for adoption last night. Yep still horribly mixed.

CANDC · Nov 14, 2014, 09:33 PM

Thanks for sharing your story. You seem upbeat and enthusiastic.
Sounds wonderful. If you hit a roadblock remember we are all hear to share and help each other.

kaliope · Nov 14, 2014, 09:34 PM

well I hope he is able to work it all out for you...I know it took me years to find the right meds,,,,i was switching every couple of months...but I kept at it and finally found the right ones to stabilize me.

Crazy Hitch · Nov 15, 2014, 12:46 AM

It sounds like you're moving forward.

Onwards and upwards.

Victoria'smom · Nov 15, 2014, 03:35 AM

the screening is 0-3 based on how many symptoms of depression you meet. 0 being none 3 being 6-7 days a week. But we're all safe and breathing. If we couldn't laugh at this there'd be no point.

pink&grey · Nov 15, 2014, 10:17 AM

I had the adoption thoughts recently too. I think it's probably natural when depressed and feeling like you can barely even take care of yourself let alone someone else.

Mountainbard · Nov 15, 2014, 10:35 AM

It sounds like there are some good things happening for you. I am so glad!

Victoria'smom · Nov 15, 2014, 01:13 PM

EPink & gray - one of the signs that someone is going to commit SUI is giving away there prized possetions. I think children tend to fall under that symptom. Even if we don't realize it.

I completely ****ed up my kid. He's treating me like I'm retarded. I found out he hasn't turned in or signed into his classes for almost 6 wks. Wtf I see him on the website. I see the notes. He says he's turning 3 things in per a class. He really, really believes he turned stuff in. My kid was in tears as I called all 5 teachers only to get most of them to treat me like an abstentee parent with a delinquent child. So of course with the frustration and agitation with being mixed and the situation. I flipped out at an already crying, confused child. Only to later retreat and feel like he'd be better with someone else. Two days latter I still feel that way.

Megaera · Nov 15, 2014, 10:21 PM

It sounds like you are doing much better. Just because you have this doesn't mean you can't have kids. I have bp 1, ptsd, gad and hubby has did, bpd and my son has autism and my daughter is 21 months. I love them so much and yea things arent perfect but your doing the best you can. Hang in there.

Victoria'smom · Nov 16, 2014, 02:14 AM

He read my rant to his father about sending him to boarding school. His dad saying maybe with family but not boarding school. Then all my thoughts on why he couldn't stay with them. Now he thinks I don't love him. He begged me to not send him to boarding school and did his school work all day. I don't feel sorry for the things I said but I feel bad he read them. So I'm not really sure how to apologize. I still feel the same way but I'm sorry he read it .

prepsychmel · Nov 16, 2014, 02:50 AM

It sounds like things are moving in the right direction!

Victoria'smom · Nov 16, 2014, 03:14 AM

I know things are getting better but everything feels so horrible :'(

hamster-bamster · Nov 16, 2014, 03:17 AM

MM, you did ace it. Take it one day at a time. You aced that test for real.

Curious651 · Nov 16, 2014, 07:11 AM

Wow. A lot going on. Not sure what to say. I am a bit mixed from reading your posts. One moment I get one vibe hen the next a different vibe. Hope everything works out.

~Christina · Nov 17, 2014, 11:01 AM

What tipped you into the horrible feeling ?

Darvula · Nov 17, 2014, 11:07 AM

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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

He read my rant to his father about sending him to boarding school. His dad saying maybe with family but not boarding school. Then all my thoughts on why he couldn't stay with them. Now he thinks I don't love him. He begged me to not send him to boarding school and did his school work all day. I don't feel sorry for the things I said but I feel bad he read them. So I'm not really sure how to apologize. I still feel the same way but I'm sorry he read it .

How did he come to read it, MM?

Victoria'smom · Nov 17, 2014, 12:17 PM

Darvula- He was on the computer and I didn't realize that our facebook conversation was popping up on his computer each time we typed. lovely windows 8.

Cristina- I've been in an angry mix for a while. I almost Od'd on the seroquel (last Saturday), planned my Sui (this Saturday) and promptly started becoming delusional, now it feels like bugs are crawling all over me, I'm still being a massive ***** and my husband refuses to drive me to urgent care because "he's tired and doesn't want to leave the house" and "We have to go out tomorrow anyway". The worst part is he KNOWS what's going on!!!

Darvula · Nov 17, 2014, 12:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

Darvula- He was on the computer and I didn't realize that our facebook conversation was popping up on his computer each time we typed. lovely windows 8.

Cristina- I've been in an angry mix for a while. I almost Od'd on the seroquel (last Saturday), planned my Sui (this Saturday) and promptly started becoming delusional, now it feels like bugs are crawling all over me, I'm still being a massive ***** and my husband refuses to drive me to urgent care because "he's tired and doesn't want to leave the house" and "We have to go out tomorrow anyway". The worst part is he KNOWS what's going on!!!

Oh no. That sucks. I've had those kinds of screw-ups with FB too. Hopefully if you talk to him and explain things he'll be able to see how much you care about him. I do think that kids can usually tell when an adult is being honest.

Husband may need a kick in the pants, but don't do it. Can you get someone else to take you to the care unit? Hang in there.

Victoria'smom · Nov 17, 2014, 04:48 PM

So even though he didn't want to I must have been not nice because he took me. We got that the dogs paperwork, our lease, utility bill in, picked up some meds......

Now the Dr wanted to put me souly on an AD.

instead I asked for....... SYMBYAX So when it gets filled I will be on 6mg Zyprexa and 25 mg of Prozac EVERY DAY!

For those that don't know me this is a hug accomplishment for me, even my husband was shocked.

Secretum · Nov 17, 2014, 05:03 PM

MM, I'm glad you are willing to take the symbyax. I was on symbyax (6/50) for a long time, and it helped immensely. I still had mania and psychosis, but it pretty much cut out the depression aspect of it, which made my life infinitely better.

Hold on; things can only go up from here!