I think prozac damaged my brain :(

I went on symbyax (prozac + zyprexa) in August of 2012. It was great;for the first time in years, I had no depression. It was all gone! Looking back, I think I was hypomanic, but I didn't recognize it then and I didn't care. It hurt my grades because I was too busy experiencing everything life had to offer to study.

In Jan 2013, I went to Rome, and we all know how that went. I got manic/mixed, delusional, and was sent home. I was seriously suicidal.

In December of 2013, I was agitated. I was hallucinating and extremely distressed. My doctor told me to double the zyprexa. The thing is that the zyprexa and prozac were in the same pill, so I doubled the prozac too.

The hallucinations didn't go away; in fact, they increased dramatically in frequency. I started getting suicidal whenever anything slightly stressful happened. It was how I coped with rejection, anxiety, minor sadness, everything. I started having mixed states from hell, and became very irritable, at times even rageful.

I think this is part of the reason why my t thinks I could be borderline. The irritability, the chronic suicidality, the intense and rapid cycling...it is not me. It is from the prozac.

I've been off of prozac for two months now, and these symptoms still haven't gone away.

Anyone else have an awful reaction to an SSRI?

I went try so many meds... couple of years ago all prescribed by my podc. Would not be surprised. I suffered total memory loss for about 5 months.. and was told it would take up to 3 to 4 years for the brain to recover. At least I remember this. Be careful please .... huggles

I'm actually going to try to get on Symbyax. Every antidepressant except viibryd has thrown me into a mixed episode. You should have been given a PRN zyprexa instead of doubling symbyax.

Bring this up with your therapist. So s/he knows what is really going on.