Song stuck in head and "I can't/ I'll never" thinking

Sometimes I get songs stuck in my head. Not whole songs, but very little snippets. Usually they aren't good ones and are very triggering to the point where I feel literally mad and wish I had a switch to instantly turn them off. Tonight, for example, I have three songs that are alternating these snippets:
High by (forgot the artist): "I have to stay high to keep you off my mind"

Secrets by Mary Lambert: "I've got bipolar disorder, my ****'s not in order"

And especially this one (which the name escapes me): "So it's ganna be forever or it's ganna go down in flames."

All these songs make me think of my ex and how screwy I sometimes feel with having Bipolar (even if I have accepted that I have it). They get me stuck in the past and down a spiral of negative/nostalgic thinking...wishing things were different...and feeling guilty for nasty things I said to her about a month ago (it's almost 4 months since we broke up, she has moved on, but I can't get her off my mind and it's driving me nuts...especially with these songs in my head).

I always feel happy when I drink, but I don't do drugs. I like to get drunk and party at clubs or bars especially but I always seem to overdue it wanting to get absolutely smashed so all I think about is dancing, drinking, and the people I am with. Sometimes I talk about her to friends though when the sober me is over talking about her to them.

Lately I've struggled tremendously with thinking "I can't get over her", "I can't get these songs out of my head," "I can't believe she's gone and I feel partially responsible for the relationship ending," "I will never get over her fast enough..it will be too long because of my tendency to think negatively and be stuck in the past," etc. etc.

How can I deal with this? I'm getting stressed, upset, and getting migraines. I just feel pretty defeated/hopeless sometimes...especially right now. I'm just so done with it, but my brain doesn't seem to know it. All it does often is think about the good times we had when the relationship actually went well...then turns to how after breaking up she told me she was with someone else and wanted to "wash her hands clean" of me. I don't know what to do.


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i'm not sure if you've done me a favour, or not.

all night i've had this party song stuck in my head (no idea what it was, and i've posted in general chat to see if anyone can help me)

and now after reading this it's secrets by mary lambert. (and sum of our parts)

i like her music, but god help me.

i want to break free of the music in my head...

I listen to Bob Marley Radio on Pandora mostly. It's positive and spiritual.

I don't do songs but have those racing thoughts at nite sometimes, only thing that has ever helped me was xanex,,,

I always have at least one song stuck in my head. Sometimes multiples. And it's snips of songs, not whole ones. And like 1 line will play from one then 1 line from the other, in a loop. And sometimes it will be 1 song. But when I get songs stuck in my head they usually last for weeks to months. Same song, over and over, all day and every day. I had the "Clap along if you feel that happiness is the truth" stuck in my head for three months. Just that one line, from the Happy song.

And I'm trying to go to sleep but the song keeps looping. And the song will bring up memories, make me think of things I don't want to think of, and those things will build up.

i asume it plays more than bob marley. (like artists like him)

bob marley's music is... well, good. but i wouldn't describe it as positive and spiritual

What's spiritual to some isn't to others. Lyrics mean different things to different people. Same for any art. You place 15 people in front of a Picasso and your bound to have 15 different meanings.

I went through a period of about 4 months with one song, particularly the melody, in my head. Drove me crazy. Sorry you're dealing with that ugh. Especially since it triggers memories. My only thought is maybe just keep playing music until it stops.

i think the what's spiritual to 1 is not to others is an entirely diffrent topic.

but yes.. you do have a point about that

Thanks everyone. I'm glad to know I'm not the only one. Do you think this is mainly a Bipolar thing or it can happen to anyone?


Xanex has to be prescribed, right?

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perhaps it's something that happens to everyone

but even more so us because their's songs that trigger us or mean something to us (good or bad)