[Alone & confused]

I'm tired. I LOVE ALL OF YOU! Thank you everyone at PC! You are truly awesome! Keep on fighting! I may be going away for awhile. Love you guys! ♡♥♡♥

[tipper1492]

Going where? You get back to us all as soon as possible. Are you going away somewhere for help? Don't dare let us down nor the very worthwhile person you are.

[ozzy1313]

I hope you are safe- please let us know how you are doing.

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by tipper1492

Going where? You get back to us all as soon as possible. Are you going away somewhere for help? Don't dare let us down nor the very worthwhile person you are.

No sweetie, I'm not going anywhere for help. I've been really ill for a long while now and I don't see any need to try to get better. I'm just so tired of trying. Love ya! Stay strong!

[Crazy Hitch]

Hope all okay

[pink&grey]

Hang in there. I'm so tired too, but recently realized I could stop acting strong and just focus on whatever the hell it is I need at this moment. I'm still depressed, but I don't feel as ashamed about it anymore. It's a struggle, but we all get through it together.

[ozzy1313]

Your posts are scaring me. I don't know you, but I am worried about you- hang in there- please. ((hugs))

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by ozzy1313

Your posts are scaring me. I don't know you, but I am worried about you- hang in there- please. ((hugs))

Sorry for scaring you! Guess it wasn't my time to go because I made it through the night. Family is on me hard and heavy to go to the Dr and I might, just to shut them up. I'm not really looking forward to finding out what may be wrong with me though. I don't think it will be good news! Love all of you!

[A Red Panda]

I think going to the hospital would be a good idea.

This thread sounds like you attempted suicide. If I'm correct, then you really, really should go to the hospital. You deserve to have help if you need it, and if you are feeling suicidal or attempted anything, then yes, you need help.

[pink&grey]

So glad you are hanging in there. I have to call the pDoc today with new symptoms and I'm worried too. Please keep us updated.

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by pink&grey

So glad you are hanging in there. I have to call the pDoc today with new symptoms and I'm worried too. Please keep us updated.

Will do! Good luck to you!

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by A Red Panda

I think going to the hospital would be a good idea.

This thread sounds like you attempted suicide. If I'm correct, then you really, really should go to the hospital. You deserve to have help if you need it, and if you are feeling suicidal or attempted anything, then yes, you need help.

No babe, it's just my failing health, and me tempting fate by refusing to get seen by a Dr. On top of a respiratory illness, I started having chest pain, and in my left arm and neck. But I ignored it. Guess since I'm still here it was nothing. Thank you for your concern and I'm sorry if I worried you!

[Alone & confused]

Ok, I'm so tired of this! Now abdominal pain too? That's it! I'm completely falling apart! I give up! If I don't end up going to the ER this weekend I'm going to TRY to go to the Dr Monday. If this means a hospital stay then my family (who has been pushing me to go) can just find a way to do without me for awhile! I'm done with the suffering! IF my body IS dieing out it's taking too long! I want some relief!

[pink&grey]

So what you have to so to get seen and treated for whatever is going on. I went into the hospital recently and my family did fine, and I'm a single mom. It might be time for them to take care of you for a little while. I don't know all your symptoms, but I have learned over the last year that anxiety can cause a lot of physical symptoms and then those symptoms cause more anxiety and so on and so forth. Terrible cycle. I know you are worried to hear bad news and don't want to go. I totally get that.

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by pink&grey

So what you have to so to get seen and treated for whatever is going on. I went into the hospital recently and my family did fine, and I'm a single mom. It might be time for them to take care of you for a little while. I don't know all your symptoms, but I have learned over the last year that anxiety can cause a lot of physical symptoms and then those symptoms cause more anxiety and so on and so forth. Terrible cycle. I know you are worried to hear bad news and don't want to go. I totally get that.

It's just that this is going to be a long ordeal once I get started and I simply have no desire to go through it all! Long story short, I need to:
Get back on my bipolar meds (find the right "cocktail" that works!)
Get a Gyn and get the cancer screen I was supposed to have done 2 years ago (ER Dr. Strongly urged me to do! )
Get the ct scan my Dr wanted me to have done on my head
THEN I need to see about the respiratory, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea and abdominal pain problems.
OH! AND convince my Dr to refill my pain meds for the degenerative discs!
ALL THIS while finding a way to manage my family and home!
It's hopeless!
Ahhh! And the MIGRAINES! Let's not forget about the brain-splitting headaches!

[pink&grey]

When it rains it pours! The only way to do it is piece by piece. Start with the first thing and try to not worry about the others until #1 is done. Good luck. You must be overwhelmed. I only have to take a shower and brush my teeth and still can't get to that point!

[BNLsMOM]

One thing...one day at a time. There is hope, but you just can't see it right now.

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by pink&grey

When it rains it pours! The only way to do it is piece by piece. Start with the first thing and try to not worry about the others until #1 is done. Good luck. You must be overwhelmed. I only have to take a shower and brush my teeth and still can't get to that point!

I know that feeling!

[lacerta]

Oh, I know how overwhelming the visits to docs can be. Try putting down some plan how to handle this - one doc per week or so. I have to plan several visits for my kids, it's too stressful for me, I hate calling to make appointments, waiting rooms make my cry etc. But you need to take care of yourself, I know it's sometimes hard and sometimes it's easier to thine about other people needs first, but you family needs you, and needs you to feel well. Take care!

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by lacerta

Oh, I know how overwhelming the visits to docs can be. Try putting down some plan how to handle this - one doc per week or so. I have to plan several visits for my kids, it's too stressful for me, I hate calling to make appointments, waiting rooms make my cry etc. But you need to take care of yourself, I know it's sometimes hard and sometimes it's easier to thine about other people needs first, but you family needs you, and needs you to feel well. Take care!

Thank you! It would also be more encouraging if I had any faith uin my Dr, but she just doesn't seem to take much of an interest and that gets to be highly disheartening!

[Fuzzybear]

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Thanks Fuzzy! Love you! ♡♥♡

[lacerta]

Originally Posted by Alone & confused

Thank you! It would also be more encouraging if I had any faith uin my Dr, but she just doesn't seem to take much of an interest and that gets to be highly disheartening!

Is it possible to change doc?

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by lacerta

Is it possible to change doc?

I suppose, but it's such a pain with my history trying to break in a new one and get them familiar with my background. And then, who can I trust? There all about the same around here! I don't know.

[Creative1onder]

Originally Posted by Alone & confused

No sweetie, I'm not going anywhere for help. I've been really ill for a long while now and I don't see any need to try to get better. I'm just so tired of trying. Love ya! Stay strong!

Are u giving up, surrendering ? Keep fighting. What do you prefer to live or die?