[kmptrgeek]

My pdoc took me off of Latuda due to akathesia and put me on Risperdal (.50mg a day at first but now I'm at 1mg a day). I was put on Latuda while I was in the hospital in November. At some point during that time I began to have "mixed states", feeling depressed and exhibiting hypomanic symptoms at the same time. Like right now...I feel like crap and just want to go to bed, but I keep getting up to go clean something in the house that pops into my head. It's like a mission to clean the toilet, even though I just want to lay down and go to sleep. Part of it may be that I know my wife will be upset if I go to sleep this early and I will have to deal with that. I don't know what mood I'm in anymore. Does that make sense? I think I'm down, but then I realize I've only slept 5 hours in the last 3 days...and I'm not physically tired. Or, I think I'm up but I just burst into tears when a song comes on or whatever. I'm wondering if this is a side-effect of my meds, or am I regressing into another form of Bipolar. Is that possible?

This sucks worse than just being up or down.

[Victoria'smom]

It sounds like a mixed state.

[chasms]

hey we almost have the same med cocktail haha.
i deal with mixed states as well. Particularly right now as well, i think my risperdal needs to be upped...i never really know what mood i am in. Everything feels extremely....confusing. I'll be depressed but have racing thoughts and be all jittery yet suicidal as hell and wanting nothing more than to just sit in the corner or whatever.
Mixed states are def not fun...sorry you have to deal with them too

[BlackSheep79]

I agree with Miguel'smom, sounds like a mixed episode to me. I had a mixed episode almost a year ago and I can relate to your symptoms. Call your pdoc immediately, it's nothing to mess around with and wait, it will continue to get worse, as I'm sure you know.

[Tucson]

It is during a mixed state that I thought I was going to lose it, whatever that means. It was intense pain and suffering. I came really close to going IP. It was the worst experience that I have ever had. Do not do what I did which was to see if it would pass. Get help ASAP. You do not need to suffer like this.

I recommend more stabilizer to remedy. Wha else can you do? Not much. More stabilization and then drugs to zero in on baseline. Basic stuff....hard part is finding the right mix. Good luck!

[HALLIEBETH87]

Please ask your Dr before changing anything and Im sure they can help you figure out what to do to get you back on track. Feel better!

[Mrs. Mania]

I'm also rapid cycling right now. Thursday and Friday I spent crying in bed. I've been up now for 30 hours and zooming at full speed. I have realized I don't like sleep. I wake up sad or angry, so why not stay up. Reflecting back, I realize that this has been a constant trend. I used to only take my sleep meds if I was up for over 48 hours, and surprise, I haven't taken them the last few nights. It's a dangerous game, if you're losing it, get to the Dr.

[~Christina]

Sounds Mixed .. Yelch Mixed is just just pure hell on earth. Please contact your Pdoc Asap. Usually they hit you hard with an AP to help knock you outta it.

I hope you get relief soon

[kmptrgeek]

Thanks for the replies. I've been in contact with my doc every couple of days, and he's been tweaking my Risperdal. He will probably go up on it again. The thing I can't wrap my head around is...why has it just now started? I've had bipolar since I can remember (even though I didn't know what it was) and I can't remember being mixed. I'm just afraid I'm getting worse. Or maybe I've been this way all along but didn't know it. My wife has said I've switched sides in the middle of arguments before. Or started out calmly discussing something, then gone off on her out of the blue.

There's a kick in the head. Not only do I have bipolar, but an extra little dose of fun called mixed state. Yay me.

[Mrs. Mania]

Originally Posted by Mrs. Mania

I'm also rapid cycling right now. Thursday and Friday I spent crying in bed. I've been up now for 30 hours and zooming at full speed. I have realized I don't like sleep. I wake up sad or angry, so why not stay up. Reflecting back, I realize that this has been a constant trend. I used to only take my sleep meds if I was up for over 48 hours, and surprise, I haven't taken them the last few nights. It's a dangerous game, if you're losing it, get to the Dr.

Ended with 52 hours up 19 ish down. My body aches, my mind is hamburger and I hate life.

[Silver Eagle]

I have also had this terrible painful mixed episode. It is like you will explode inside your body and your head is like a tumbler. Racing thoughts. At the same time your body is heavy like a stone and your mind is depressed. This is the worst thing I've ever have had, and it's coming when i'm very stressed.

[kmptrgeek]

I thought I had started leveling out after my pdoc increased my Risperdal. I ended up pretty hypo, but I recognized it and didn't want to drop off the cliff like I usually do after a high...so I started working on coming off gradually. I've been doing square breathing a lot, taking a shower before bed to help manage my sleep patterns, eating better, etc. But last night and today I've been really irritable...and I can't tell if I'm up or down. All I know is everybody (including my wife) is pissing me off. It seems to be the hardest thing for me to control, being irritable. When I'm irritable I don't want to do anything but be pissed off.

[BlueInanna]

I feel for you all. Mixed is confusing chunk of hamburger brain
I saw pdoc last week for mania. Then in her office I'm having a crying spell and used all her Kleenex. Yelled at her What the F is this!!?? I thought maybe it was just plain mania gone bad but she said it's a mixed episode. Then I got mad she had no hand sanitizer eww... I'm still mad about about the med changes but I am starting to feel better & stopped the risky shot I'd been doing :/. Hugs.