Help. 2 months of madness. Now I'm digging out

Everyone, including me, thought I was Bipolar II. Well, for two months, most of which I don't remember, I lost pretty much all of my friends, including my girlfriend, and, almost my apartment (a doctor came to my rescue). I'm Bipolar I.

It's so heartbreaking. I walk down the street and see people who I said hateful things to, and no one understands, except people who've been there. I don't remember what I said or did.

The worst part is I didn't know I was insane. I live alone. I wasn't on meds (they didn't think I needed them).

I need support. It hurts like hell. The girlfriend even more than the apartment. If you've been there, I could use, at least, an e-hug. I've got no one.

I'm not going to hurt myself. I'm just so so sad. BTW, just started Lithum two days ago. The racing thoughts are subsiding. I've been, well, not nuts. for two weeks. Thanks.

Friendly reminder. If you're Bipolar I, CANCEL your Facebook account.

I'm sorry you're dealing with so much loss right now. I haven't been there personally, because I usually take my moods out on myself, not others, which makes my problems a little less visible to the outside world (I've always been a major shut in both mentally and physically due to moods) but we're here for you and you're welcome here.

I am also just starting a medication, geodon. I hope lithium works for you and you can build your life up again!

The fallout from having Bipolar can be devastating. I am so sorry you are going through this. I have lost friends and the respect of family due to my illness too and it is gut wrenching. Lithium has been a very helpful med for me ( I am off it temporarily while I have ECT). It deals well with the Mania and agitation. Hopefully once you stabilise you can mend the important relationships that have been affected and build some new ones. We at PC are here for you. take care.