[Victoria'smom]

How do you know they need you?

Because they love me, and I love them. That's all there is to it really.

[Espurr1989]

1. They are happy to see me.
2. They call or text me.
3. They say they love me.

Honestly I don't think they technically -need- me, as in they would all survive without me, but I know there are at least three people who would cry if I were suddenly no longer around.

[Velouria]

I think it's often in the little things that are easy to miss or overlook, the day-to-day things that seem so mundane and simple, but are really based on a strong foundation that you helped to build.

What makes you think they don't?

[Victoria'smom]

What makes you think they don't? My son has a wonderful father and his father has a wonderful soupport system. The don't need me. Sure they'd be upset for about 3 years but they'd move on.

[Crazy Hitch]

These are intrusive thoughts ......................

Indicative of your mood state ......................

Please do not think such thoughts to be true ..................

Your son may have a wonderful father, and his father may have a wonderful support system, but there is a love that only a mother can give.

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

What makes you think they don't? My son has a wonderful father and his father has a wonderful soupport system. The don't need me. Sure they'd be upset for about 3 years but they'd move on.

It took me ten years of abject misery and pain to "move on" from my father's death (I was ten when he died). During that time i started cutting, got hospitalized six times, spent three months in the state hospital and six months in a residential treatment facility. My brother became addicted to drugs. He spent most of my wedding crying because our dad wasn't there to see it. He also has a severe anger problem and has kicked/punched a lot of holes through his walls.

Your son already has emotional difficulties. You dying would screw him up for the rest of his life, ESPECIALLY if you took your own life.

Reconsider. Don't let depression fool you.

[Skywalking]

I'm going to look at this from a different angle.

I love my estranged father and I needed him so badly. I wanted to spend time with him, be there with him on holidays and just be able to ask his advice and get his thoughts on things. I wanted him to be proud of me, and involved in my life. I needed to be able to tell him I was scared, and that I was happy, and see him smile or have him hug me.

I have been estranged from my father since I was a teenager, he has been gone half my life, and I miss him. You don't get over losing a parent and when he nearly died because of a thing that happened, well, let's just say I will never be over that event, either.

Every child needs their parents. Every child needs their parents' love, time, and attention, even in situations where, like me, I wasn't treated well. And while I have grown to slowly forgive him for the things that he did that made me decide he couldn't be there in my life, and yes, I have gone on with my life, I have never gotten over missing him and the years we should have had together. I will never get those years back, and no one will ever be able to make that different now.

A lot of the time, you don't know how much you need someone until they're not there anymore, because we take people for granted, we assume they'll always be there, because just imagining a future without them hurts too much to even think about. But we love and need them even if we don't always show it.

[Crazy Hitch]

(((((((((migs))))))))))

[jacky8807]

I have met sons who have lost their mother to suicide. It is a hole thhy can never fill
A mother is the most specisl thing in life for a son
He needs you. He loves you. He will NEVER get over it
Ignore these intrusivd thoughts like hooligan said
Thy are lying to you
Besides that...find love for yourself. You are worth a good life. You deserve to prosper
It is your birthright to live and learn and find joy
You ARE plenty just as u are
Never forget it

[scatterbrained04]

Children need their parents. When I feel suicidal, I remind myself that a parent's suicide also increases the likelihood of the child committing suicide in the future. Then I just take each moment as it comes. I don't think about yesterday or tomorrow, that's too overwhelming. Just now in the moment. Then I get through it. Hope you start to feel better soon.

[Victoria'smom]

Thank-you guys, I still don't fully believe it but I keep reading the posts whenever those thoughts are strong. Today so far has been a bit better but still. At least I see T on Wednesday.

[Secretum]

MM, you are a wonderful person. You're a good friend, and all of us enjoy having you here. I'm sure you're a great wife and mother, and there is no way that your family could ever "get over" losing you.

So put those thoughts out of your mind.

Imagine horrible parents. Abusive, mean, vindictive, neglectful .Think of children raised that way. They unfortunately still love their parents.

Now think of wonderful parents. Kind, thoughtful, caring. Children love them.

Children, love their parents.

You sound like a good person. Believe me, you will be missed. We will all be missed. When times are tough, we need to know, we matter.

[Crazy Hitch]

*pinch myself*

Yip.

I still love you migs.

(((migs)))

[BlueInanna]

Cuz they do need u!
They just do.
Hugs hugs hugs