[whoknowswhatsnext]

I needed help to figure out a way to handle a situation at work while my mind is in depression/hypomanic mode. THere is no one home for the next 4d, no one for me to talk to. So I go into chat and start talking, everyone leaves...WTF??? So I am sitting here jsut getting lower and lower. I should have just quit my job and then i wont have to go out into the owrld at all.............

[nothemama8]

maybe if you talk about it here we can help

[whoknowswhatsnext]

I tired to in the chat room and everyone left me.

What happened is that today I was told another employee had blamed a bad situation on me to tbe boss. Lucky for me the actual manager was on the phone with me while I handled the patient so she heard the whole thing and stood up for me with the boss.

I almost quit, I cried when I found out (though right now I am crying about anything.) Then I stopped and told myself to come home and get an objective opinion because I knew my brain was in depressive mode which makes things seem worse. But no one is here until Sunday. My mom is also out of town. There is no one so I came here and everyone left me

The question is how to handle this. The employee that complained was pissed cause I called her out on crossing the boundaries in pt care (She is a receptionist and tells pts to go to the ER and makes medical decisions over the phones for them.) But now if I go to the boss it looks like a personal thing when in fact I was going to go discuss the ongoing problem and the potential for lawsuits due to her actions even before all this happened.

I always think people are talking about me anyway and nmow this and I just dont want to go back to work because it seems like the world is against me. and I am a big fat baby.....

(((((((Whoknowswhatsnext))))))) I have no idea what to tell you, I'm the last person who should give advice on situations like the one described. I'm self employed because I could not deal with office politics working for companies.
I just wanted to tell you that I don't think everyone left YOU in chat-it was probably just bad timing.

[bizi]

Hi there,
being newly diagnosed is tough. Waiting for your meds to kick in is even tougher.
Give the lamictal a few weeks to titrate up to the safest dose possible usually 200mg. YOu are at 25mg? They slowly increase you to try to prevent you from having the dreaded rash....which by the way is a very slim chance of happening to you.
I am going to post a 48 hour article for you.
hang in there and keep posting venting talking here...we are here to listen and help when we can.
It is all about support!
bizi

[onebecametwo]

Hi, I am sorry you are going through this, but I will commend you for still being able to work. I am bi-polar manic. I also have chronic obstructive pulmonary disease. I am on SSD. I was awarded it on both diseases. There are times that my mind races (manic) and it feels like a whirlwind. I live by myself, but I do have friends I can call and family, but they dont' really understand the mania. I have one friend that says, Pam, hang on a minute, I need to turn the volume down on my phone, you are talking to loud, which I didn't know until she brought it to my attention. I hope you are feeling what is normal for you by now. Pam

[louisehg12]

I am going through and have gone through similar situations at work - it's extremely hard, I know, when people, especially those in managerial positions, give you a hard time, don't believe you, etc. You mentioned that this co-worker, who works as a receptionist, is sending clients to the ER (i.e., making clinical decisions) - this is unethical and you have every right to report this. You mentioned that your boss stood up for you when this same co-worker tried to get you in trouble out of spite. Can this same boss help you out here? Do you feel supported by him/her enough to ask to help with advocating for yourself? I know it's very discouraging and I understand why you feel that people are talking about you - when you are in any kind of depressed/mixed/manic state thoughts and beliefs become distorted and we either lash out or become too discouraged to advocate for ourselves. And, for the next 4 days while you are by yourself (feeling alone) do post here - you can get through this with support. L

[whoknowswhatsnext]

You all have given me so much good info and support. It also just helps to know people out there have the same things going on and hear what they do to manage it. I am proud of myself for ignoring the thoughts of quitting and getting home and safe before making decisions.

I am going to ask the person who stood up for me to be an advocate and come with me when I bring up the problems in a nonconfrontational way.

Of course part of me want to beat the person over the head with her phone Or at least let her know her plan didnt work but that is not tkaing the higher road.

[nothemama8]

[bizi]

Great idea.
You are doing well!
hang in there
bizi