[imatter2]

I see my T tonight and I'm waffling - do I need to tell her how bad things WERE in the last several days??? In the last about 18 hours things have been back to pretty much normal and I don't want to make anyone over-react... I just don't know. I was basically one foot in the hospital as it was, I'm afraid if I say just how dark it got, I won't be believed when I say things are dramatically better. She doesn't know me very well yet and I'm kind of afraid she'll err on the side of too much caution (I don't really know HER very well yet either, so maybe she wouldn't). I could def. pass an evaluation, if it comes to that, but I have no insurance and can't really afford to spend an entire day in ER being observed and evaluated anyway.

Meds have helped stabilize things and I really feel like I'm out of the crosshairs of this thing for now, so is there even any point to saying "yeah it was BAD, but not anymore?"

[Crazy Hitch]

Hi imatter2

I've always maintained that honesty is the best policy.

I understand that things that have been challenging.

But we can't really be helped with things unless we disclose what these things are.

I think you are perfectly fine in saying:

"yeah it was BAD, but not anymore."

That's what I would say.

If this is the truth.

Hang in there.

Yeah, that would be good to do.

I'm pretty honest (ie. not intentionally dishonest), but have to admit having a strong tendency to minimize. But she knows this about me, and probably tends to take it into account. But this is almost 5 years. Especially with you not knowing each other much at all yet, it's better to just spell it out. There hasn't been time to develop a level of understanding to bypass anything. They need to get to know you.

I can't say for sure of course, but pretty much anyone who's dealt with BP is going to know some shifts are not gradual(!) It really doesn't seem unbelievable, you know?

[Turtlesoup]

First I want to acknowledge & high five you for having gotten through a really bad time & worked through it That's what all the therapy, meds, coping skills etc. is all about-getting us to learn how to work through these things without crashing & burning. It is difficult building up that trust with a new T & I have lived most of my life minimizing my issues but my mantra now is be honest-they can't help me if I minimize. Do what feels right for you