[ParanoidPizza]

I'm confused in my feelings and need some input.

I'm not sure what love is anymore. To love a person that hates me, and its torture. To want them to love me or at least appreciate me. I read to love means to be selfless but in that same idea, doesn't it make you crazy to not receive that love back?

My mind tells me to just move on and not bother, but my heart keeps telling me to keep trying, but nothing changes. It's just pain and sorrow.

I know the good advice is to move on and get over it. I just keep thinking if I give it time then the person will see me how they used too. Am I just fooling myself?

Darlin, your a hopeless romantic! I don't trust bipolar love anymore. Bipolar makes red look redder, the sun shine brighter, and feelings run on overdrive. That bipolar love, the way I now see it, is just an illusion/delusion. We bipolars are Romeos and Juliets. Normal people don't see it that way, they are Bert and Ernie's. I learned to not trust my heart in matters of love. It's taken 4 failed committed relationships to drive that home. That's just me though, I too am hopeless as much as I want to preach against it. I also know that once an illusion has been shattered, it will never be the same again. Good luck on your decsion.

[Crazy Hitch]

This is a really complex situation.

I am a bit wary in giving my personal opinion here.

You have explained this from you point of view; which is a given; this is what we do in posts here.

I feel like I am lacking information in order to connect the dots and if I passed an opinion it is highly likely to be a potenitally false one as I do not know what circumstances were involved in creating this situation.

You have stated:

"I give it time then the person will see me how they used to."

I just wanted to acknowledge that I am sorry that you feel that you were loved in the past because you thought that your partner saw you for who you truly are but no longer does.

Been there, tried it, didn't work, done with it.

[manicattack]

:-/

It's such a complicated matter. I dealt with this (still deal with this) issue for a long time. When I was finally diagnosed, I decided to focus on myself rather than on being in a relationship. I was single from 2006-2010, with a few dates here and there and one short-term boyfriend that was a BAD idea.

Anyhow, I'm not sure how old you are, but when I was 21 I fell "in love" with someone. It was a very intense/difficult time for me because my bipolar disorder was really starting to show through after having bouts of depression and some mania. This guy actually fell for me first, but I was on a hiatus after having my heart ripped out by my ex (3 year relationship).

I ended up falling for the guy and he had lost the interest other than being friends because I had been so stand offish and it broke my heart. For like, two years straight.

It got easier once we stopped talking, and once I got other hobbies. Writing has always been my go-to, but it made things worse then because all I would write about is him. I literally have several journals from those years and while there are a few spots where I don't mention him, the majority of the entries mention him at least once.

I do not want to seem harsh nor do I want you to take my word as law, but, generally if people do not want to be with you it is with reason, whether it is them, or because of personality clashes (and sometimes this is just because of your personality, and it isn't a bad thing).

Try to find something healthy to keep your mind off it. It's really hard, but it gets easier and then eventually one day you wake up and realize you haven't thought of the person in a while.

It gets better. But it isn't healthy to dwell and you really should try to move on in your own life, for your mental and emotional health sake.

[ParanoidPizza]

Thanks everyone. This really helped me.